okay, for all of you who will not leave me alone about this stupid wedding...it is set for a later date. we are NOT broken up...not in the slightest. we just decided that we are too immature and not financially equipt to take proper care of eachother. i am fine and he is fine, dont worry about it, i will talk about it when i want to but for now, i am okay and i will see you all at the homecoming game. i love you all, and you all know this, so just trust that i am okay. i dont mean this to be mean, but i keep getting cards in the mail and things, and i would just like to 4get about it and look to the future.

hey, this one goes out to all that I have offended!!

To all of you guys, I am very sorry about not being myself lately. Frustration does take its toll. and needless to say, it sucks!! but i am over that. i recently listened to a commercial on the radio (which i hate doing) and it was and ad for depression. It kept saying that "you CAN change the way you are, you want to go back to the lifestyle that you once had...you just dont know how." then it came to me, i do know how to though!! i dont need medication...i just need to be positive and not let others get me down!! so what if someone is better than me at something?? honestly, there will always be someone out there that is better than you. you just have to learn to deal w/ it. i've recently learned that i cant get mad at "myself" b/c of someone being a better singer than me-i just keep having to press on and work harder. then maybe the next time i will go out and get em!! but being bitter wont make me a better singer. only hard work, respect, dedication, and a positive attitude will make anyone better. so i need to stick to that. and to all of those who i may have offended these past couple weeks, i am truly sorry, and i am writing this blog to tell you that, and that i am changing the way that i am and learning from my mistakes. i love you all!!

does anyone besides me and my dear friend, angie, get just plain frustrated w/ anything? wow-music and things involving it are just really getting us down. she and i try sooooo extremely hard to be positive about things, and right now, we are so frustrated that we want to kill mostly everyone involved. let me tell you...it sucks!!! im trying to look at these things and think "what kind of 'good' is in this?" then i try to think about those things, but you know that 1 negative=3 positives...wow-that is so true. it isnt that we are frustrated w/ ourselves, it is more of other people. so, i would ask all of you to think about what is frustrating you at this moment...and comment to me about it, b/c i would really like to know that angie and i arent the only ones in this!! lol i luv ya all!!