As he wiped my tears away, shivers ran down my body. I was there crying and extremly upset. Though i was thinking about the hurt i felt inside, I was also thinking how his soft fingers were on my cheek. He cared about why i was upset but i could not tell him why. The truth would burn my face in embarassment. Like a hot iron on mere paper.

The reason for my tears are much to silly for the man i love. For me just getting out of 3rd hour where the cold in the room was not the temperature, but of the biting ice cold words were directed toward me, the fat girl. I did not want him to know so i said nothing. I just cryed and he made it all better. He wanted me to smile to asure him i would be alright. He always knows how to tap into my soul and crack my secret code, and in turn of him making me laugh i smiled.

He leanded over in that amazing way he does and asked, "Is there anything you want to make you feel better?" I said no but as i turned to walk away, i wispered "you." I walked on down another hallway to go to lunch. As i looked up into the clearing alowing you to see upstairs, I saw the man who just wiped my tears kissing his beloved girlfriend goodbye. He asked her, "What do you want to do tonight?" I turned around and wispered, "You."

chris i know we told each other that we were never going to put our selves through a relationship again but i cant stop loving you over night. i want you back cuz i love you so much. i miss hearing your voice when you call early in the morning. i miss the sweet things you say when i am in a bad mood. i miss your funny jokes. i miss dimple on your left cheek. i miss the little nick names you pick up in the course of a conversation. i miss the way we used to be and i want it all back. i am all in this time. if you jump i jump remember. the first movie we saw together. our movie. the titanic. we both cryed at the end but then you said you had alergeis. and you werent crying. but you really were. you just didnt want to seem like a wimp. please be with me. it is where you belong. it is where you should be right now. i love you. this song on my page is for you. listen please.

i hate my stupid job!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i dont want to do it any more. i just want to quit. but i cant cuz i need the stupid money even though i am underpaid and treated like shit. gosh if i work one more day i swear i will jump in front of a bus. and i am bored as hell cuz larry is in jail so my plans are cancelled for tonight.