This year has probably been the hardest year of my life, and if you know me at all then you would know why, but sadly the people who are meant to be my friends probably wouldn't know...I can tell them so many times what is wrong but they choose not to listen, probably because they have more important things on their mind...like oooooh what gossip can I go and tell so and so!

Everyone’s friendship groups have changed this year, my group has pretty much split up, whether they want to admit to it or not, I believe it has and it's not just ours, there are 2 or 3 others that have as well, but i'm not going to go into that!

Pretty much all the people who I thought I could rely on and depend on have let me down and proved that I really can't trust them! This year has made me realise how lucky I am to have people like Esther and Faye because to be quite honest, without them I don't think I would have got through this year!

This year has made me realise that there are so many fakes in this world, people who bitch, backstab and lie just to get into other friendship groups! They pretend they don't even know the people who are true to them just to be with the people who deep down inside they know are not the people they should be with.

I'm not saying that I haven’t made mistakes this year, because believe me I have! I have tried so hard this year to be a better person but yet I can't see the point because it all comes back to hurt and pain!

This year I have learnt that you have to put all your faith in God because there is no point in putting it in anyone else as all they will do is let you down and stab you in the back until they get what they want! I believe that everyone will get their comeuppance in life so what's the point in being fake because it will come straight back at you in the end!

In a way i would like to re-wind things back to last year, but it's too late for that now and there is no point in dwelling in this past because at least now I know what people are like!

I'm going to try so hard next year to be a better person, but at the same time I think what is the point because will anyone notice? If they barley notice I’m alive and purely use me for their malicious acts then what is the point, because they wont know that I have changed because they don't even take the time to realize i exist!




Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just said that it would be worth it.
Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might never get them back. sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late.




I don't expect anyone to read this because to be quite honest no one cares about me enough too, but if you do happen to have read this then take a moment out of your busy and hectic life to reflect on what has happened this year...

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of tree. Most men men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground which aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Now... Men are like a fine wine they begin as grapes, and its up to women to stomp the SHIT out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with..

J-Everyone loves you.
O-You are one of the best in bed.
A-damn good kisser
N-So Hott
I-Love is something you deeply believe in
E-You have a nice ass.



A- damn good kisser
B- You fall in love quickly
C- You're wild and crazy
D- You have one of the best personalities ever
E- You have a nice ass.
F- People totally adore you
G- You have a very good personality and looks.
H- You never let people tell you what to do.
I- Love is something you deeply believe in
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things
L- Sexy
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- So Hott
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- You are beautiful
S- You're loyal to those you love.
T- damn sexy
U- You are really chill.
V- You are not judgemental
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let ppl tell u wat to do
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for
Z- You like it in the butt very