well its been awhile. but its been fun, no doubt. my boyfriend is terrific. and im looking forward to our future together!! i started school and its going great. im meeting lots of new people!!! anyways, im excited about everything! its all going...perfect!!

so now i have 2 journals, fun fun.

the boyfriends being a...well you know. a bad word. god he's been so mean lately. i think im just going to call it quits. 2 years. actually a little over 2 years but im just tired of trying to make it work when im not sure if he wants it to. but i know, i just know if he didnt want to be with me then hed say it. cause thats how he is. very outgoing. i know that he loves me no matter what i just wanna know why hes so damn mean.

spend the night over at kates sunday night and then hung out again last night. we had fun we always have fun. we're trying to throw bud a suprise birthday party. which will be really great cause its been forever since katies thrown a party. and everyone ALWAYS have fun at kates. dumb, dumber, and dumbest are together again!!!

im still in the process of applying to colleges. lol im so frickin lazy. its okay even if i dont get excepted this semester and next semester. a little while away from school will be good for me. give me some time to save up money. i do know what im going to do though, preschool teacher. even 1-3rd grades would be neat too. but mom was telling me if i wanted to do that, that would require more school. so i just might be a high school teacher i just have to figure something to major in, english maybe.

yes, im a loser. a lazy loser at that!!!

-Jay