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- Female, 283
- from Fya
- I am Single
- Member since: November 2008
- Sometimes it's just best to forget and move on rather than sit around and rot like hell inside, emotionally
- Me, Myself, and I
- ρaige fobister
"...the sight of you, my knees are weak"
I crave it like an addict, I cannot give in...
- Love for you all, forevermore. ♥
- If you want to find out about me just ask, & don't bother talking smack about me in order to think you actually know me. It doesn't even help anybody speaking nonsense.
- Scared Of
- Being unhappy...FOREVER
- Happiest When
- I'm dead...soon.
Welp, I'm soon to be considered an actual adult... But why is it that I want to give up now? Damn. Been battling these feelings for so long... A very, very long time.
I'm to deal with these myself also, no one understands. But by the time they do, it'll most likely be too late. I'd feel sorry and regretful... My younger family members. But I do not want to suffer loss, rejection, and all the suffering thas been racing through my mind. I'm not so sure of myself anymore... I'm not sure of anything to be honest, nothing seems to make any sense.
Too much drugs and alcohol for me, too much painful unforgettable memories, too much suffering, too much thoughts, too much words being said, too much of everything that I don't need.
So... yeah. Love my family. Love only for my family. I never really had any friends so yeah. Just my family...
1 Comment 46 weeks
I don't know what I'm doing now. I feel like I'm "Stuck."
I'm not able to move forward without looking back, I'm not able to think of the past while trying to move forward.
I'm not able to handle these things anymore, more and more... they come and they go. But every time it keeps getting worse. I'm not going to keep forgiving and forgetting anymore. I'm so awfully close to slipping.
Ooof yees, I'm not going to leave you here to suffer with them anymore. I'm promising you that you'll be with me, whenever you're ready to move also. ^_^
I'm not proud of my mistakes I've made last year & so much for trying to start a new year, freshly...
Anyways, NVM. (A)
0 Comments 236 weeks
So "Christmas" is coming up... though I know it seems stupid to you, but I hate it. I honestly just plain-out damn hate it. I never get what I've been wanting for years. & No, it's not something selfish like a cellphone, or a new game system, clothes, whatever... I always wanted my family with me. I'm not going to be the Grinch though. I'm just going to smile, cuz it's the next best thing.
I'm surely considering, taking a break... from everything, and all it's stresses. Totally can't wait.
Ooh, Today I went to the Christmas Concert... even so I was to go to an appointment, but I wanted to go see JMF on the stage instead, oh how much I cherish him...
I'm sticking to family values & smiling. :]
0 Comments 240 weeks