Well today was will's birthday it was fun...stayed the night with him last night. He was actually really sweet. I mean it was cool, i just wish that we could talk more it seems that all he ever wants to do is talk about music or sex theres more to life than that isn't there? I mean i think so...but then again a girls sexual peak doesn't hit TOP till there 30 and guys hit at 16-18. But anyways he turned 17 today i'm so happy for him. He seems really happy, i just hope i can keep him as happy as i want him to be i hope he sees how much i love him i mean i know i'm a bitch i really do but its not my fault...it runs in my blood. (You should meet my aunt...BITCH) anyways....yeah we went to church went to eat with his family went to his aunts now he's cleaning the house and i'm doing this....i just i dont know i feel weird finally typing all the things i'm thinking and my fingurings are moving slower than my mind so if i mess up i'm sorry shit he he comes....

Today was not going as well as expected. This morning i didn't have to ride the bus so i thought i was gonna be okay. Well then i got to school, and went to find out if i made the star search thing, and as it turns out i didn't. "MY" spot was given to a girl who forgot her words. I couldn't believe it. But o-well. Then as i started testing, i started to wonder if i really was as smart as i thought i was. It dawned on me, maybe all this bragging i'd been doing about haveing B's in school, and being smart. But just because i was taking the easy way through life. Then in forth block the girl i absolutly despice has been staring at me all block. And its DRIVING me crazy. Oh i almost forgot after homeroom (Which is where we were testing) i passed my ex in the hallway and he winked at me. I didn't know what to do so i just smiled. And to top it all off, i've been so sore from the softball tournament (which we came in 2nd, guess better than last). So to my understandings everything can take a turn, and you should never base your WHOLE day on the very beginning. Because at times the things you want most can slip away and then you have no where to turn, but to sorrow so ALWAYS remember that you shouldn't get your hopes to high. *The best part of my day was that Jackie my best friend has been by my side the whole way thanks jackie.*

my grandfather is getting married, one of my friends got married, and my best friend is getting married whats up with marriage.