as i sit here having sat in a bath with thoughts going through my head 20 at a time, i now sit at my chair wearing nothing but a towel looking at this computer screen and trying to interpret all that ive learnt in my 16 years of living.
It's hard to write it down due to most of you knowing my memory is possible as bad as you can get so this'll have to be quick. Right lets begin

when born it seems life was so simple as everything was done for you, all you had to do was say mumma or dadda and everyone was happy.
but as you get older you start to realise the complications in life such as love, relationships and friendships, all of which can vanish in a second. life becomes all about choices and making the right ones being the priority.
but during all these decision making and losing out and things, does anyone ever sit down and think if they do this, what are they going to lose and what are they going to miss out on.
me, i don't i go with whatever happens and end up regretting it and wishing you could go back as you never understand the importance of things until they're gone.
people always say "you'll miss it when it's gone" but the truth is, you missed it when you had it, taking that thing for granted means you never really understood the true meaning of it and could never get the full happiness possible.
and you never will.
once its gone it is virtually impossible to be restored back to how it was.
sometimes it can, but is it really worth trying again when you know the results always going to be the same?

enough on that front lets move onto the importance of music

when we were younger we all had stuff like spice girls, boy zone and busted, music that these days most will refuse to admit to, but listening to that music brings back memories of childhood and memories you just cant get without a helping hand.

now its too late my memories gone again.
living life where you cant even remember what you did yesterday specifically sucks.
there are times i wish i could remember what we did and all the conversations we had
but hows that possible when i can't even remember my best friends birthday.
life and happiness can be taken in a minute.
so think through choices and recognize what you have before its too late

UPDATE:

when you live in disbelief and hope that something will happen when every1 else is telling you it wont, listen to them, as when its then rubbed in your face for an entire night you wont feel like your being destroyed over and over and over again.
friends are there to help, thats what they're there for, so listen to them and give them lots of hugs, because friends are forever and chocolate doesnt last long








i miss it

why has your smile gone from your lips
why has your body moved from my fingertips
why do you worry about something so little
come with me and together it'll be

fine
itll be just fine
well be fine
and you will realise in time

that everything you have and everything you own
is something someone has gotten and blown
that some people may think your the luckiest girl
coz youve found someone in this world

so please dont cry tonight
please let me hold you tight
please dont go away
without you my skies turn grey
so please dont cry tonight
please dont turn out the light

all you need is your knight in armour
your prince charming who in return is a charmer
all you need is some one to hold you
so come with me and i will show you youll be

fine
itll be just fine
well be fine
and you will realise in time

so please dont cry tonight
please let me hold you tight
please dont go away
without you my skies turn grey
so please dont cry tonight
please dont turn out the light

it will be just fine
we will be just fine
you will be just find
and you will realise in time

so please dont cry tonight
please let me hold you tight
and please dont go away
without you life wont be the same
so please dont cry tonight
please dont turn out the light
and you know i want you to stay
coz together we'll be o.k

Describe =

The Shoes You Wore Today = My kick ass DCs with a hole
Your Eyes = Um... Blue? i guess lol
Your Hair = Black, longish, kinda boring lol i want it dyed red
Your Height = 6ft....i think
Your Fears = O GOD PPL TOUCHING MY FEET I CANT STAND IT!
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What Is =

Your Most Obsessed Phrase On Msn = Lawl probs or
Your Thoughts Of First Waking Up = HOW EARLY IS IT WEN MY DICK GETS UP!
The First First Thing You Notice On The Opposite Sex = Erm, them, eyes, hair, and then ze smile
Your Most Missed Memory = Summer
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You Prefer =

Pepsi Or Coke: Coke, it has a cool xmas advert
McDonalds Or Kfc: Maccy D's u can get a large chicken nugget in a bun =]
Single Or Group Dates = single, so u can c the real u
Adidas Or Nike = adidas, they had a funny advert before cloverfield
Chocolate Or Vanillia IceCream = vanilla, cud eat that shizzle for hours
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Do You =

Smoke = Nah
Curse = fuck off, course i dnt.....twat
Have Any Crushes = well i am quite beautiful
Who Are They = Myself and my dick
Want To Go To Collage = music collEGE yes =]
Like High School = boring shizzle but i miss seeing every1
Get Motion Sickness = nah im ard
Think Your A Health Freak = OMFG I BREATHED
Get Along With Your Parents = if they buy me sweets
Like Thunderstorms = Yeah bring on that shizzle, as long as my mum dnt tell me to turn off the computer
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Have You Ever =

Missed School Because It Was Raining = Nah its a reason to go tbh
Told A Guy That You Really Liked Them = HOW THE FUCK DID U NO
Cried During A Movie = Yes but again, this blends in with my gayness
Thought An Animated Character Was Hot = yes =]
Had An Imaginary Friend = yea i called him alfie but i lost him
Been Called A Tease = strip tease?
Shoplifted = nah im a good boy
_____________
Thε Future =

Want To Get Married = i guess
Number Of Children = as many as she can pop out lol
Discribe Your Dream Wedding = me on guitar, say the rong name, have help me written on the bottom of my shoes
How Would You Like To Die = suicides always good
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up = musician
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit = anywhere but france
___________
Number Of =

People You Could Trust With Your Life = 5
CDs That You Own = bout 25 lol
Piercings = i want eyebrow and lip, maybe nose
Tatoo's = i want smords round my wrist and somet on my back
Times Your Name Has Appeared In The NewsPaper = hmm never
Scars On My Body = bout 20 lol
Things In Your Past You Regret = 1 well 3
___________
Faves =

Colour = im going green
Day Or Night = Night
Summer Or Winter = Summer.
Lace Or Satin = hmm toughy
Food = red apples
Sports = sex
___________
Right Now =

Wearing = white t-shirt from tescos, funky rave hoody from topman, grey skinnies from top man, and simpson socks
Drinking = my own spit
Eating = Daimes whatever they are
Thinking = will we ever be?
Listening To = M.I.A - avenged sevenfold
__________________
In The Last 24 Hours =

Cried = hmm no
Worn Jeans = skinnies
Met Someone New Online = nah
Done Laundry = No Lol
Drove A Car = yes coz thats legal
______________
Do You Believe In =

Your Friends = well they better not be imaginary
Santa Claus = yea hes called bill he works at argos
Tooth Fairy = u mean my mum?
Destiny Or Fate = Everything Happens For A Reason, i agree with megz lol
Ghosts = hmm in a way
UFO's = well my mums cooking being thrown i guess cud count
God = yes, he is a dog
_______________
Friends And Life =

Ever Wish You Had Another Name = pfft ill live
Do You Have A Bf = of course
Best Friend = Hayley, megz, josh, sean and andy
Do You Like Anyone = i like them
Which One Of Your Friends Acts Most Like You = er sean?
Are You Close To A Certain Family Member = well my mums like 2 feet away lol
Whats The Best Feeling In The World = either, farting in ur mums face without her knowing, sex, or gettign that