Been a long time. I don't often write as it requires too much thinking. I am still in Victoria, and staying with my friend, Jayne. Next Monday I am going to Salt Spring Island to hunt down my old friends, Tom and Val. I have not seen them in 30 years, so it should be a good reunion.If things work out I will return to live there. I am not a city boy, but born and raised in the country. Victoria is way too big now. Too many people and motorists are all crazy. Very aggressive, these Victoria drivers. Anyway, I look forward to being in the mountains again. Perhaps I will even remember to come back here and let you all in on how it went. I do try to remember things, and I always do, eventually. Just takes me awhile. Too many other things going on inside my head. Still carving and working on my art, but cannot do much here at Jayne's. Need to get into a place where I can make some mess. tee hee. Okay. Gonna run now. Hope you are all doing fine. Miss everyone I haven't seen in so long. Hope to see you all again before I die. Till then, take care, and God bless. Don (Dusty)

okay. here I am. I think one of the reasons I started this whole bebo thing was because I have one of the worst memories in the world. and I always feel bad when I realize that a birthday has come and gone and I forgot it again. so I thought this would help me keep track of at least your birthdays. kinda releases my brain from a little more stress. I can tell you about stress and what it will do to you if you hang onto it too tight. but I won't. most of you probably already know. I thought I might tell you what's been going on for me the last little while. About four or five years ago I made a death wish. (perhaps more about this later. remind me!) I had been depressed for almost two years by then, but we didn't know much about depression then, so I had not yet seen a doctor about it. I was recovering from surgery after my colon burst, and had been on a morpheine epideural for more than a few days it seemed. I had no idea what the come-down would be like, and was not told to expect anything from the doctors. I woke up about one a.m. soaked in sweat and freezing cold. Luckily I had an extra pair of pj's handy. The second time I just wrapped my housecoat around me and went back to bed. After that I sat up in the chair and cried because I was cold and alone. Do I sound like a little child? Yeah. How old? I'm not sure. You tell me. It is just one of the mysteries I am trying to unfold. I catch myself doing that now, where before I was not aware that I was acting like a child. I was just being me. and could never understand why nobody else understood. So that's when I made the wish, and I remember feeling quite strongly about it. but then the nurses came in and found me and fixed everything and that night they kept a better eye on me. anyway, I think subconciously I have been trying to fullfill that wish. Although not very agrtessively. I am not the aggressive type. so my being here in victoria has been very beneficial to me in that I have grown tremendously in my understanding of what happened to me and how it has affected my life. and still affects it. Even as I write. I guess what I would like to do now is apologise to all of you, for I am certain that I have hurt you in one way or another at some point. On behalf of the child in me I am sorry. You know how kids are. Sometimes they get out of control. but as the old sayings go, Be patient, God isn't finished with me yet. I am just a diamond in the ruff. some days more ruff than others. (smile) I'm gonna quit now. I think that is quite enough for one sitting. b4n I love you all.

brb.