These i been doin as much as i can to keep my self from being bored . My friend sara had stopped by the other at like 12:00 am in the morning crying about her travis fighting and she keeps asking me waht she should i am like i can't say anything cuz i am not her your shoes and i really don't want to say the wrong thing and get her mad at me . I mean my friends keep coming to me for adivce about there love live and i am thinking to myself why are you asking me i mean i have been with the same guy for 4 years on and off. IN my relationship with isn't the way it use to be we've both have grown up alot and i some time wish that my riends would the same cuz their lives are like so childish its like i am like 14 or something again when i almost 21 yrs old i mean i like the fact that they can talk to about things but sometimes i really just wanna say what i am feeling like if you don't love him fuckin leave his ass and i mean foreal . But i am been really worried about what the doctor is gunna say about test that he run on me i hope it something that can be fix with a pill or something i don't want it were i am not gunna be able to have kids . well g2g

I found no more than 6 weeks ago that my best friend was pregeant and now i just found out that she had a miscarriage i know sunday when i was at work when i seen across the street at work that something was wrong . So i went and seen her at work and found that i wasn't going to be a godmother cuz she had lost the baby . SHe doesn't believe me when i tell her that she wait to try again at least when she has a job . SHe lost hers on monday .

WEll i am trying to get my life in order so that i can save some money for my wedding . My boyfriend of 3 years got down on one knee and asked me to marry him and i accepted . I found my wedding dress and everything. But their are some things that i would like to say i am sorry for things that i did to people over the years i know there is no reason for me to keep things that i am mad about bottled up inside.