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Sarah Pendarvis
- Female, 30
- from United States
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- Member since: April 2006
- Last active: 1/19/11
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- Me, Myself, and I
- just a girl with a womans' smile
- Music
- postal service, venus hum, johnny cash, radiohead, portishead, weezer, kmfdm, tracy bonham, bjork, old korn, alice in chains, outkast, trance music, i like a variety and the list goes on...
- Films
- JOE VERSES THE VOLCANO, AMERICAN BEAUTY, kevin spacey rules so i must see all he does, anything by tim burton, ben stiller movies, FARGO, king kong (my favorite movie last year), walk the line, lion king, anime, i like a variety of movie genres too as long as they have an interesting plot, oh.. i really like scarey movies
- Sports
- i dont play sports but i have in the past.. i like most water sports, gymnastics, vollyball, dodgeball, soccer. i like watching figure skating and any kind of martial arts. i want to dance!!!
- Scared Of
- too many things, whats the point?
- Happiest When
- feeling the love vibes, helping others, making life connections, my life spark shines
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numb
Unable so lost,
I can't find my way,
Been searching, but I have never seen,
A turning, a turning from deceit.
‘Cause the child roses like,
Try to reveal what I could feel,
I can't understand myself anymore,
‘Cause I'm still feeling lonely,
Feeling so unholy.
‘Cause the child roses like,
Try to reveal what I could feel,
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone, oh no.
I'm fooling somebody,
A faithless path to roam,
Deceiving to breath this secretly,
A silence, this silence I can't bear.
‘Cause a child roses light,
Try to reveal what I could feel,
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone, oh no,
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone.
A lady of war,
A lady of war.
~portishead1 Comment 370 weeks
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the world has turned and left me here
The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said
You remain turned away
Turning further every day
The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened
You laughed enchanted by intellect
Or maybe you didn't
You remain turned away
Turning further every day
The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
You remain, turned away
Turning further every day
The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place, an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe?
~weezer2 Comments 372 weeks
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bittersweety
im starting to feel very bitter about most things in my life. ive been down that path before and it isnt anyway i want to live. yet i feel ilke i cant help it. i feel this anger inside me boiling into a rage i cant deny. so i take it to the bitter level, where it just sits there as ugly as can be.
i cant let go of many of these feelings thru something positive. like right now i feel like it would be such a relief to stab myself to death. think im crazy, well so be it, im serious. i think normality which is so far from a sense of normal is crazy! im looking to find my soul relating to the "big picture" thru some form of steady sanity. a BIG "F" it to it all, is where i feel like i can begin to find myself, but thats not me, i care too much. despite the fact that i fantasize about not giving a hoot about any of it. but in actual fact im just not giving a "F" about myself. when i welcome all with the purest form of love i have, i feel like it should be reciprocated, though in most instances it is crushed, taken advantage of or unrecognized. i know right from wrong, my mistakes, im aware of the fallacy of extreme ideals. why is it SO hard for me to take it all in and do something positive with it or simply just let it be what it is & let go of it. life isnt easy, rarely ever is, id think id be used to it by now.1 Comment 372 weeks
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Samantha Parnell7/3/06My Wish for You I wish you happiness - The kind that's deep within your soul and shines through your eyes. I wish you serenity and a sense of perspective that calms you and lends you understanding in the most difficult times. I wish you success in every facet of your life; Satisfaction and contentment in everything you do. I wish you dreams with the promise of their fulfillment; a lifetime of extraordinary memories and a path which leads to beautiful tomorrows. Above all I wish you could see What a difference you make in my life and how grateful I am to know you. *I <3 u Momma
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Matt Mao6/26/06hi,sarah i won't be back in two months.well, tomorrow, i'll go to the east beach to have a short break, one week or so. then, comes the long summer holiday, i'll go home and share the happy time with my family and friends. see ya at late august. i'll miss you enjoy your time. your chinese friend Matt
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Samantha Parnell6/12/06Thank you.. I like my page too... its titled "I cry out your name" I love you more
your friend thinks I'm funny
I like her already
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Samantha Parnell6/7/06Hey woman... hitm me up somehow when you get this.. I've gotta talk to you about something... <3 Ya ME**
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Samantha Parnell6/2/06Hey chickie, Just thought I'd drop a few lines to say whats up... and to see if your ok... did you guys settle anything? Hit me up when you get a chance.. Miss ya... Luv Me
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Samantha Parnell5/19/06Rose Water, Method #1 This recipe is the more traditional way to prepare rose water. Though it's a little more involved, its fun to do and the results are outstanding. You can make a quart of excellent-quality rose water in about 40 minutes. However, if you simmer the water too long, you will continue to produce distilled water but the rose essence will become diluted. Your rose water will smell more like plain distilled water, rather than the heavenly scent of roses. Be sure you have a brick and heat-safe stainless steel or glass quart bowl ready before you begin. Ingredients 2-3 quarts fresh roses or rose petals water ice cubes or crushed ice 1. In the center of a large pot (the speckled blue canning pots are ideal) with an inverted lid (a rounded lid), place a fireplace brick. On top of the brick place the bowl. Put the roses in the pot; add enough flowers to reach the top of the brick. Pour in just enough water to cover the roses. The water should be just above the top of the brick. 2. Place the lid upside down on the pot. Turn on the stove and bring the water to a rolling boil, then lower heat to a slow steady simmer. As soon as the water begins to boil, toss two or three trays of ice cubes (or a bag of ice) on top of the lid. 3. You've now created a home still! As the water boils the steam rises, hits the top of the cold lid, and condenses. As it condenses it flows to the center of the lid and drops into the bowl. Every twenty minutes, quickly lift the lid and take out a tablespoon or two of the rose water. It's time to stop when you have between a pint and a quart of water that smells and tastes strongly like roses.
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Samantha Parnell5/8/06"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life...let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. " *written by me to you* **thinking about you momma!! Lots of love girlie.. oh and why cant you call me??? Love ya Me
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Samantha Parnell5/5/06umm Chinese! Yummy.... I'm making chess pie.. it smells so good! cant wait for it to be done.. I'm online where are you???
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Samantha Parnell4/13/06what up Homie G? I miss u !!!!!:z night!!!
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Cassie Perez4/3/06hey we met...
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Cassie Perez4/3/06yeah we did met early.
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Cassie Perez4/3/06yeah we did met early.
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