A Heart Without Love

So many things runnin through our heads so many things that cannot be said..
the heart is locked-up so no one else can get in..
they are but forever without her..
the heart becomes heavy with grief..
the heart becomes as black as night..
it becomes heart as cold as ice..
the blood of their hearts are as unpure as dirt..
anger grows deep with-in the heart..
the heart stops beating..
the blood runs cold..
the skin turns pale..
So many things that were running through our heads so many things that should have been said..

when you just want to hear his voice even if its only for a few seconds or minutes..When you can't stop thinking about him..When all you want is to know that its him on the other line of the phone call even if no one is talking..When his smell just suddenly comes to you when you know thats not really what the place smells like..I like him and he says he likes me.."so whats the problem.." people say I'm too young for "that kind" of relationship..(what do they mean by that im old enough to know things) when you have NEVER! felt this way about anyone ever..when you want things to stay the way they are but if they must change only change for the best.. when you know you need help with finding out what to do.. when you are tired of feeling like a ping pong ball..(with his mixed signs).. when somthings are dificult to do and focus on because you are t hing about what he is doing at that moment or your just thinkin about him..and even though you feel this away about him sometimes you just want to stop thinking about him so that you can get things done..when your tired of people telling you the same thing when you ask them what they think that you should do..when you want to get in your car and drive to see him no matter what the distance..or when you hope that he is on his way to see you..when you hope that he is thinking about you as you are thinking about him.. but then you worry at time about him,if he is alright..and when no matter how bad you are feeling or how bad your day was he can always make you laugh and smile.. and when you are having a bad day and you just picture his face/or his voice and everything is all better..when you don't feel like eating or doing anything because you are or want to think or talk to him..when no matter what he does you can't get or stay mad at him.. when you feel like you can ask or tell him anything..when he can understand your problems better than anyone else can..when you can write this much about one guy.. i think i luv him but he doesnt know.. but i don't know if he feels any where near the same about me..

What do u do when u think u have found the rite guy for u..but ur family doesnt think its rite.. or when ur mother doesnt trust him.. or he is 18...or ur stepbrothers best friend... and he likes to make u jealous all the time cuz he thinks its cute and u just keep fallin for him no matter wat he does..but then u start to push him to do things that he needs to do in life.. and maybe u sudn't do it.. or maybe u sud..things like gettin a job findin a place.. but wat if u push him away or push him too far..what do u do when u r told to get over him but u just cant..and when u want him to make a move and ask u out or something and he doesnt..what do u do when u no that u need to help him but u just dont no how too...wat do u do when u no that if he isnt in ur life then u wont be the same...What do u do when u dont no wat to do anymore..