So i normally write on MDD, but i thought, lets do a nice one on here for a change .

I love the way i dont have to please anyone anymore,
i love how when my phone rings i dont expect anyone to call,
i love how i make myself look nice for me, no-one else .

Im really happy with who i am now, how i act and my personality in general, of course there are aspects id like to change, i mean, who isnt a tinyy bit self concious?
I feel like ive grown up a lot recently, ive taken control of myself, i feel i can take on anything head on now.

Im getting my life sorted.
Im forgetting the people that arent worth my time, loving the people that are.
Enjoying every day as much as i can.
Forget wasting a day sitting in feeling sorry for myself and my lack of a love life, im making something of a day, so when i go to sleep im happy with what ive done.

Im a strong person.
I have realised this now, i dont depend on anyone anymore..
If im sad, i appriciate someone to talk to, but you wont find me crying on anyones sholder.
I know who i need in my life, i know who gets me through hard times and yes i might get annoyed at them, but i know no matter what, i need them.

This summer i dont want to be held down by last years guys, i dont want to stay in wolverhampton, i dont want my summer to be a waste.

Summer will be filled with laughs and mistakes, as per.
Im okay with that though .
I wont beat myself up over silly mistakes that arent really that important.
Whatever happens this summer, happens.
Its my last summer holiday before i need to fully get my act together in school.
I will have a good time, i will do silly things, i will regret getting involved with people, i will lie to myself about feelings but as long as in september i look back and think, fuck me, that was fun - who cares.

So now you've read a taste of what i think about and write on Mydeardiary, your opinion of me might have changed..
dont be too judgemental, i think your a cunt too .