Ive been doing so much soul searching lately, Ive come to this intense surreal conclusion, I dont seem to have one, whatever soul I had, I left back in that god forsaken desert, I realise it doesnt hit other guys as hard, but some of the stuff you see over there is ridiculous, this exposure Ive had to the lower side of humanity has opened my eyes. At this point in time im so angry with the world, so angry with people and thier so called normal day to day lives. What a complete load of horseshit. I now see the falseness of humanity and the faces we put on to please other people, to make other people like them. pfft who the fuck wants that, who wants to live around a bunch of liars and fuckheads.
At this point in time I dont want anything but for life to makes sense. I dont understand why the fuck we continue to walk around acting like everything is ok. Ill give you all a quick tip,"THE WORLD IS NOT OK" I AM NOT OK. I hate bieng back here in Australia, I want to be back overseas, it was so simple over there you just had to do your job, you just had to survive. If you didnt like the way someone was acting or the way someone was doing there job, youd bloody tell them, but here, nah why would we tell old matey his a lazy fat sack of shit, oh thats right, NO ONES LIFE DEPENDS ON IT, so lets parade around and just whisper shit behind there backs like its a fucking mothers club. Im sick of seeing it. Im sick of having nightmares, im sick of jumping a thousand feet into the air whenever a loud bang goes off. Grenades, Mortars, Rockets, IEDs and EFPs those are just some of those things I think about when I drive to work. Yes as dumb as it sounds it still lingers in the back of your mind weather or not that pile of rocks on the side of the road is an IED that will take you out. Im so proud to have served my country, but in doing so Ive awakend the truth in humanity, I no longer have the shield of Ignorance over my eyes. No longer people do I see your everyday face, i see you for you and just remember that the next time you bullshit to me.

Why are women so confusing, I dont understand. Is there a need to dick us around or do they just enjoy it. I love someone so much but yet, we want completely different things. Im not ready to buy a house slow down take it easy, but I would do anything for her, well obviously not everything lol. Oh well, for the better, If you love someone so much it hurts sometimes the best way to show it, is by not showing it.

It is quite good to be back though this i wont deny, my poor liver has and will continue to take a mad pounding, itll cause some dramas in the future i can see this but atm I am all that is man lol. Righto im done whining im off to drink with one of my buddys from Iraq uru lads!

A horrible day for Australians everywhere. Today a soldier lost his life in Afghanistan. An Australian Soldier lost his life. My sympathys go out to his families. It just shows the true danger of this horrible war. Nothing good will come out of us bieng here. But thats not my place to say. "Complaicancy is the tool of satan"

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