im sry. im so sick of life. everything is so boring and pointless. i hate my school, i hate my town and i hate my life as of now. i liked life back n middle school when i enjoyed the ppl round me. not that i hate everyone, they are cool ppl but nobody is like me. i have different views on everything. and everyone around this hell hole is the same, wheather they like it or not, or if they are guna admit it...its true, thats y im misserable where i am. it shows. i know it does, and im glad it does cuz its true, im real and imma stay real to dez ppl that cant face the facts. ppl around here are thick skulled, close minded and so FUKIN ignorant it makes me wanna vomit. i was tellin my mom all this and she blew up at me. she said "im sorry i make your life misserable" i felt bad cuz i didnt mean it like that but once i told her that she said "ur saying ud be alot happier anywhere else, and its my fault i raised u here" i guess thats true, but i dont blame her. i guess i have nobody to blame. i have honstly thought about saving up my money and running away. but then i realize, i made it this far, i might as well just wait till i graduate. but as soon as that diploma is in my hands. im gone. and i wouldnt turn back for nuthing. i can honestly say. i wouldnt miss a god damn thing about this place. i can see how ppl are happy here. its a nice place. but its not me. and the ppl here are so so so so different from me. its unbelieve able how differnt i am from these ppl. nobody even sees it cuz everyone is the same way. ignorant and close minded. i have been through friends alot lately, thats how i know everyone is the same and not like me. i still like the friends i have and had. but. i just know that there is no click, i know that the only one i have in this world is me. my new motto. trust nobody. and thats exactly what i do. i trust nobody. its alot easier blockin the world out. im a very outgoin person. some ppl see that. but not so much any more cuz now i realize how fake and 2 faced theses ppl are. now i know. ppl are my friends, i have no homies. homies r ppl that you would die for. and would die for you. friends are ppl that u can laugh wit and ppl u make laugh. i have friends, few, but ones i care about, no homies tho, its iight. im my own. i thought kayleigh was my 'homie' but i started to change, decited to take a break from her. then i quickly realized she was just a friend. cuz as soon as she hears afew rumors bout us then she starts some. i dont hate her. i just know.... she is like that rest. cant hate her for nuthin. still friends i think. im willin to be her friend if she is. but she i like rest. so i dont see it. i just wanna get outta here. away from these ppl. find sumone who is differnt.sum place that is differnt. peace out.