Silhouette... That feeling Is Always Inside Me.
Sometimes It Feels A little Empty...
I Understand When People Say "I'm Surrounded By Millions But I Still Feel All Alone."
I Think You Have To Experience Painful Events To Really Understand Lots Of Things In Life.
When i Was A Child, I Never Really Understood Most Of The Things Thats Sang In Songs.
It Was More Like Enjoying The Tune And The Notes Thats Played... But As The Years Progressed, i grew Older and Went Through Hell. And Slowly The Words In Songs Pieced Up...

3 Years Of Healing...
I've Come so far... So far That Everything has a meaning that makes me want to live to the fullest of life.

This year i've become to think more and more about those days of being a child. It's like Yesterday. Sings: " Yesterday, all my troubles seem so far away" HAHAHa

Growing up and learning at a catholic school is like you understand yourself more... Like retreats, are time to be seperated from that world you work.

You know, around age of 13,14,15... ARE HELL YEARS... You know why??? because year 8 you get more Retards joining into the circle... year 9, most people lose friendship groups. 16,17,18, year 10 is much more comfortable... but settling ... year 11 is the out come of year 10.... year 12 is much more perfect and skillful at friendship. You get closer and find new ones and you have the strenght to talk to the ones you never do.
One thing is, when you make friends USE YOUR HEART in everything you do with them... and this is where you actually find TRUE FRIENDS. When i mean that, you don't ask for someone to be their friend... that doesn't work ' YOU HAVE TO DO THINGS TO RETRIEVE IT'

FRIENDS??? some people say, you don't have to have THOUSANDS of friends... 3 to 4 good friends is enough ... And it's true! MY ADVICE is to stick close to the ones you have now ... but ALSO stick close to your FAMILY!!!. No matter what they've done in the past "YOU DON'T GET TO CHOOSE FAMILY MEMBERS"...

ANYWAY!!!!
Getting back on my life story ... HAHaha
My year 12 formal is coming up and it's too exciting for everyone...
I need a Partner before this term ends.... because the tickets are $40 if i deposit now!!!
I'm looking for Hong Kong and Japanese Partners 17-18 yr... Because i need to show my parents the photos ... or feel good....

HAHAHA

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

* Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

Olivia Lufkin