when i was a young man i wanted
to change the world
I found it was difficult
to change the world
so i tried to change my nation

when i found i couldn't
change the nation
i began to focus on my town
i couldn't change the town
and as an older man
i tried to change my family

now as an old man
i realized that i could only
change myself
and suddenly i have realize
that if long ago
i had changed myself

i could have made
an impact on my family

my family and i
could have made an impact
on our town.

their impact could have
changed the nation
and i could indeed have
changed the world

Having the most mind blowing friends is the one AMAZING asset in my life.
I love how they understand.
I love how they love.
I love how they can see beyond the present.
I love how they use their gifts wisely.
I love how they are full of effort.
I love how they always perservere.
I love how they are amazingly talented and beautiful people.
I love how they support me in whatever decision i make.
I love how they encourage me.
I love how they light the Janet in me.
I love how they love me for who i am.
I just love them...

I don't know how i can put into words the love I have for you. Because I say that Ilove you so mcuh, it may not seem like i do.. but I really do. I jsut don't know how to explain the place you have in my selfish heart. I love you guys SO SO SO much.

Kirsten-Geezzzeeee. You have been through everything in my life since third form. GOing through our ups and downs in junior years, all we can do is think of them and Laugh. LOL. its been such an honour to see how much you have grown and changed and matured in your faith journey. I cannot expain and show you how important it is to me seeying you serve Jesus with your everything. Even weaving it into your busy life, you always manage to make time for our creator. You have such an amazing light that shines out of you, Jesus light. so bright no one can miss. And i was there to see all of it happen. Never leave me kirsten. Thank you for never leaving me even through my selfish decisions and choices. LOve you Kirsten with all my heart.thanking you constantly for holding my hand though all.

Chemo- You amaze me constanly. You challenge me constanly. Your thoughts, your friendship, and your comments will forever be placed in my heart. Your texts [ : really make my heart flutter (LOL) you have an amazing gift in making people feel special. I treasure your presence in my life. Thank you for letting me be apart of your life. Love you Chelsea you are AMAZING and there is nothing more i can say. Speechless. Love you so much. Im here when you need me. Racing to you...

Ari- My beautiful girly. Your the one who always makes me laugh. My precious little teddy bear. Missy moo thank you for supporting me every step of the way with ColegeHope and WV works. Your dedication to all this amazes me. Love you Arianan. MY sister in Christ. You are a beautiful girl. What makes you so beautiful is your passion, and your amazing personality.

Toby- My Brave man.My sweet man.My precious little man. And My musician. The only person i know in our WHOLE school who likes indie. You have such a beautiful mind toby. Love jsut shine and pours out of you! I would NEVER EVER want you to leave me. Thank you for entering my life, thank you for letting me ito you life. You amaze me constantly. Every day i see you. I learn something from you. Learn something about you. Love you Tobtob with alla my heart. You light that Janet in me jsut like Jesus does. [ :

Craig- oh what do i say about you! Theres so much!!! You make me go speechless. You are full of wonders. Im always really hurting that i don't get to have time alot with you. I really really thank youfor letting me come into you life. I know you don't let many people in, but thank you. You are suh a talented, beautifu guy and someone i dont want ANYONE literally ANYONE hurting you. or else *puts fist up* You make me smile. I love you so much Craig. You Glisten in my eyes.

Clint- This year has been a really signifaicant time for us to grow in each other. I have come to know you so well. mr.. im too cool for homwork! lol. Clinton i think you are amazing. seriously. Your passion for Christ shines out of you. i feel like i have known you all my life, thats the sick effect you have on people. You grow on people. You love people with your everthing. And i really love that you love [ : You are my special man, and you have have a place saved in my little hear. clinton is. Amazing, f

Im just reading a book called Blue Like Jazz. It facinates me how much a piece of text can do. It made me rethink something called:: passion....

Passion is something that has always been apart of me. I try to surround myself with people who are colourful, passionate and exploring.

some where in the book the author said this:: "If you believe something passionately people will follow you. People hardly care what you believe, as long a you believe something. If you are passionate about something, people will follow you because they think you know something they don't, some clue to the meaning of the universe...." AND... this made me think and question myself. Am i so passionate about somethings, so intrigued and so insanely passionate that other people.. the people who surround me will belive or feel the same way without knowing they are..

I tend to babbble but i hope you know what i mean.

I want to be flippen insanely passionate about Jesus. So passionate that whoever i hang with, whoever i tell about Jesus to, will end up giving their life to Him.

Sometimes i stop and think....

Sometimes i love something so much... so so SOOOO much that i dont really know why i love it/them. There is no reason behind that love but you just love them/it. This is the way i feel about Jesus. I love Him so much. I feel so strong about Him. I fall and fall again but i will always get back on my feet because i know God hasnt left me. Because i know that He is still holding onto me. Because i know He loves me.I love Him with all my heart but i dont know why. Its something i feel deep inside. Something in my deep soul that tells me its true and its real. Its love.

Its just like "gravity and sunlight" we know its there. But we dont know the reason behind it. We know that it exsists but there is no real reason for it. I feel like that. I love Him so much becasue i know He's always here right next to me. But there is no reason why i think hes real. You just feel it. You just feel Him. A sense of surity (word?) in my soul. Like there is just something.. hmm... like a radar inside me that tells me to belive in Jesus. i follow the radar that is inside me. But i mean this is what i love about chrisitianity is that it cannot be explained and yet it is so beautiful and true. It is something you feel and comes from the soul.

I dont know how i can really explain this faith in a effective metophorical way. maybe the sunlight and gravity was good. or.. maybe not..I m not good with words you should know by now. But something just deep inside i know its real. Like the weird thing with faith in CHristianity is that you belive it and dont at the same time. I mean i believe In god. I belive He is my light, and i also belive he is the son of God but everytime i explain it to someone i feel like a kid who makes things up... (in Blue like Jazz)until... one of my good friends start to belive it like me. Start to think of God. Start to feel Him.

Ohh dear looks like i have babbled on for too long and look i am writing about something totally differnt.

But what i was meaning to say is that sometimes you need to see someone love something before you can love it yourself. In other words being so deeply insanely flippen passionate about something leads other people to feel maybe the same way. I try to be passioante about everything i do. Especially with my christian faith and about rwanda. THey are two strong passions in my little heart.
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Be passionate. Be colourful. Be couragous. Get out there. you are so beautiful. Be the change you want to see. and the most important of all. Just Be yourself and love life.

Thats all.
&& i love YOU.