Have you ever come to the realization that God is just too great? I mean, He blesses me from day to day, and oftentimes I just totally miss His blessings. I don't notice His hand in my day to day life. It makes me where I just cannot stand this flesh and how it gets in my way so often.

Just today I realized something. I am being reserved around people. I am not being myself. The God speaking self that is my entire being, my mind, body, spirit. I have been hiding my essence in fear of hurting other peoples feelings. You know what? I can get over gay people, murderers, adulterers, pedophiles. Why? Because of God. And you know what. I AM TIRED OF HIDING MY CHRISTIANITY! Christians are not perfect, never have been never will be. The only one ever perfect was God Himself. Brandon, Josh, Hector, Sharloon (sp?) always ask me what is wrong. The fact that Brandon is afraid of Christianity affects that I don't play it and blast it as much as I normally do.

Today I found something I haven't seen before. A true movement of the spirit within my body. I heard a song I had heard before done in a different way. I had to dance. My body wouldn't stop the movement. It wasn't of me, cuz it was WEIRD dancing. I might even say convulsions and not dancing. That was great. I have this tingling in my body while I type now. I want this again. I must have this feeling again!

The children of my sunday school have taught me many things, but that is for another time.

For anyone reading this, this will invite you into the depths of a Freak for Jesus. Anywho, I got accepted into one graduate program, this one isn't too far away, but it lacks one important ingredient for me.... a Marching Band Program. I know I can't march forever, so I have to hold onto it as long as possible. Life is great other than crunched like mad for time in my teaching, in my classes, in my labs, in my tutoring. Tomorrow and the next day I get to help put a production on for some kids about world war 2. It will be fun! Oh, I don't really use bebo.com as much as thefacebook.com which you can search for high school graduates and the such. The only thing it lacks... a journal. lol. I suggest anyone that reads this that goes to college sign up. You have to have a college email address to be able to be able to sign up with thefacebook.com Anyway, I can't bowl tonight, and like 2 or 3 more out of the remaing 10 weeks.... so I won't get any super awards *cries a tear*. Oh well, life is gravvy, time to go to class, laterz. PhD bound baby!