So now i'm finally back home for the first time since i left for university in September and as per usual i over hyped how much the experience would be... i thought that being in a similar situation as everyone would make it less uncomfortable to be around...well not uncomfortable but just less complicated and unfriendly...ok so i'm not saying i'm perfect and everyone else is but fuck it i don't know why it seems that fake people can hurt so damn much... A really close friend of mine told me that people walk in and out of your lives all the time...but you know there's always that one person who you wished that when you saw them coming into your life you wished they just kept on walking and not stopped!!! well there are quite a few times and people i've felt that way about in the past couple of months for various reasons... but that's how life always finds a way of screwing us over...hey on a more optimistic note... i met some people that i think are beautiful inside out and even though things weren't as smooth in the beginning i'm glad things worked out the way they did...because atleast they are the type of interesting people you know the one's that make you think but not think at the same time...you enjoy their company and they always have this uncanny way of making you laugh even when their not around...Based on some of the memories i've had i'm glad i walked into that bar that night... had i not i prolly would not know as much as i have explored... yep i think i cud call this an exploration as some of the things i did do and i DID NOT DO was definately out of character some may say...but for me i've always known some way or another....anyhow i love that i'm home now..so much has changed like for eg. they put up traffic lights at the end of my street... and london strangely doesn't seem that cold either!!! but the most strangest thing that happend was my mom making me breakfast... yeah i thought i woke up in the wrong house or something...Lord knows what happened...anyway i guess i'm gonna have to update you on stuff that goes on in my boring life so u kno...