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- Me, Myself, and I
- I pretty much try to stay an open book and I don't have many reservations with sharing my personal thoughts with complete strangers. You could also try to become my friend and then gain my confidence and then steal my secret plans and use them for your own diabolical purposes. If I were to summarize myself, I guess I'd say that I'm awesome, but I'm not aware of nor inclined to believe how awesome I truly am ( GUFAW!! LOL) I try not to judge others. I don't care what you do, who you are or what you look like as long as you have a good heart. I'm a sucker for passion but am always running away from it. Music is my savior. I guess my "goal" is to quit drink but my oral fixation is so intense.This isn't easy. I don't fret haters or negative attitudes (but have been known to whoop ass on those who spread it, you know who you are). My profile used to say (well, technically it still does): **To know me is to love me, then grow tired of my shit, then resent me, then hate me,den never email me
- slow rocks, reggae....rnb...
- Eternal sunshine
how to lose a guy in 10 days
28 days later
scent of a woman
and lots more!! i luv movies
- Scared Of
- Happiest When
- I GET DRUNK........
Difficulties, disappointments, pains, (stupid) mistakes, problems..(whatever..) arise in the lives of us all. I know it isn’t easy ( I should know!). I know it’s really, really tough and crippling. I know that things aren’t always fair. Sometimes, when I’m totally fed up with all these “monsters”, and don’t know what to do anymore but cry (and cry and cry…and cry..), I can’t help but question God for all the unfairness He has dumped on me. Oftentimes, I find myself grumbling why out of millions of sinners in this world, I feel that He loves teasing me (w/ a lot of “monsters”) more than He probably do w/ others. I kinda feel so really bad about this that I sometimes can’t deal with all those “monsters” anymore and wish I would die instead.
Some days are better than others. Some are a little bit worse. Sometimes, everything works out okay.. some are complete “hell” and most of the time now, I feel that I can’t get through to the other side anymore where (they say..) the sun is still shining…so frustrating… L my initial “attack plan” for all these “monsters” is numbness..trying so very hard to never ever get myself affected w/ life’s series of avalanche.. but there are times that my “attack plan” is simply abulic..and just wish I have an amulet to anyhow save me from giving up..just when I though I’m strong enough, that I realized I’m not even close to being such.. and it’s when I realized also that its OKAY TO CRY…numbness may be a good option at first, but, it won’t help change things at all..and its so amazing how things become a bit lighter after a “sound” cry.. crying is indeed good for the health.. J
Problems and predicaments come to us all..no one is exempted..there’s no sign saying, “you must be this tall…or this tough..” to ride on the emotional roller coaster that take so many of us for a spin..we’re all passengers of this roller coaster, whether we like it or not..there are many spins..more lows than highs…ups and downs..but no matter how exhilarating the ride gets, the good news is, we can always choose to get off at the next stop.. though dizzy at first, but, at least, this time, well - learned and tougher..
There will always be tough times and difficult days in our lives..seems like some things were’nt meant to be, and some plans just weren’t meant to work out. There will always be disappoinments to deal w/, but there will be so many special blessings too.. a shittty day spent filled w/ tears is a blessing itself…at least, another day has passed..and you’re still breathing..(though w/ an aching heart..but at least..). haayyy..crazy life..
Right now, w/ all of these “monsters” that hit me..i know I can carry on and will carry on still, no matter how rough the going gets...Life continually teaches and i eventually learn. The lessons take their toll on me,, but I do and will survive. It’s like getting a degree in hard knocks and finally graduating to the promise of better days ahead. It’s like getting my passport stamped: “been there, done that, managed to make it through..” I know there aren’t any guarantee that I won’t have to go back to “school” for a refresher course, or that I’ll never have to make a difficult journey again..but each day that comes, I know that I’m older, wiser and stronger than yesterday..and its nice to know that I can leave all the what has been(s) behind. The price is being paid now...tomorrow, it’s time to move ahead ---
And I know that things haven’t been good and easy lately….
………..but I know things will be okay…though I still cry…it’s okay…
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