Men I cant believe u gone its like a shark just came n ate out a big chunk of mylife....We were so dam close that we finished each others sentences...U was like a big Sister I always wanted...I think bout u each n ever dam day men C people just dont know how close we were.....I would kill 4u cuz u my cousin,my sister,goon n partner n crime...I love u so fuckin much that till this day I breakdown.....Just know we will be 2gether again n we will kill it as always...LUV U!

There were rough times there were hard times there were some good and great times but I put it down right now and say to myself that the hurt and the pain and thoughts of it isz over...............Theres no more of me shedding a tear here and a tear there yes I have had my moments of crying spells but not no more Its time for me to let all that go and go search for me someone that isz worthy and someone that loves me for me not saying you didnt and not saying you wernt worthy hell we never went together LOL..................Ever sense that moment I never could get over it right to this day but its over now yah business isz yah business and whateva yah do aye I cant stop it all I can do isz aprove of it and honor it aslong as you honor me,my feelings ,my thoughts and everthing else that means something.......I write this to touch you and to touch me but in a way that we can improve from this and to be honest I have held somethings back from our lil friendship and I havnt told it all and I am sorry for all of it for some examples like (when you ask me isz im okay or cool and I say yea I am or yea im cool have you notice how fast and how I sound when I say it thats because Im not telling the truth and our friendship was based on a being honest to each other and exspressing our feelings and unfortunately I havnt been doing a good job at doing that at all so me hiding my pain and and my thoughts isz over and me and you are going to start a new begining I mean this and as me being your friend I love you so much for the efort that you have put in our friendship and I love you as a person and as us being friends so except me as I am and wach out for me

Sometimes I wonder what isz my life realy based on isz it love,trust,myself,or friends and to come to the conclusion I agree that its all of the above.............But ever single day isz like so not the same one day im happy, one day im depress,next day im mad,then im sad.............I say to myself isz im bipolar and at times I think so but theres also another reason it could be mayb its the people I socialize with.....Im asked all the time by many people whats wrong with me and I always say nothing when theres really something but I feel like no matta what the problem that it isz that no one can fiixx it for me.........I try to express myself with my love ones and close ones but im only giving half the story and most of the times just say im cool when im really not. I try to be happy for others when either I really dont care or I dont want to here about it or just cant take it.......And to be truthful I have a big problem being honest to myself and others when it comes to feelings..........................
 ....But ill work threw it tho...............................
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