k so here is the latest.

You all know I failed college. That is no new news, BUT, I only failed the HND not the HNC.
This is kinda complicated but I'll try translate it out of my head onto the screen.

HNC (1st yr) - failed 2 classes, resat and passed one, handed in coursework for 2nd resit and was waiting for result/to pay resit fees.

HND (2nd yr) - fail 2 main classes. Nothing was mentioned about resiting these.

Now,
I spent most of my time working on the second 1st yr resit, therefor taking time away from 2nd yrs main projects. I see this as partially the reason I failed. The other part is a mix of all the shit that's been thrown at me this past year. Which the college did know about at the time. And failed to offer any support.

Anyway, I decided. FUCK THIS! If I've failed and can't resit I'll just blow my other 2 classes (history and business) cause I hate and struggle through them anyway.

I will not give the tutors the pleasure of seeing me fail! even though I kinda did in the process... hmm.

Anyways. Cause I did this, the Head of the Art and Design department(she the only tutor that behaves professional) at my college said she would pull some strings and use my 2nd year coursework of the same class I failed in 1st year, as my 1st year coursework. Meaning my time used on my 1st yr resit work was a waste. But if I hadn't done it, I would have passed 2nd years classes and still needed to do the resit.

Is this making sense so far?

Anyway. At the end of 2nd year, the college gives us a diploma show. An Art Exhibition. And EVERY student (HNC and HND) gets a section for their work. Guess who went and found none of her work on display... yuhuh.

For the second time out of 2 possible exhibitions, They failed to mention they weren't putting any of my work up. And it not because it wasn't good enough, I'll post pics later.

The whole time I've been at college, I have been pretty much ignored and treated as a spare part by the tutors. I was in the class, but they didn't think I'd pass, so didn't do anything to help me. (Cue shit being thrown at me from all angles of life) This is when I stopped turning up as often as I should have, and THIS is the reason they give for not helping me out.

I am empty after the effort I put in to pass. And I don't even get one piece of work displayed, let alone 2 or 3 boards worth of work.

I don't know what to do.
I realised the reason I stayed on at college after 1st year was to prove I wasn't a failure. Guess I was wrong.
I'm lost and empty and feel worthless as shit!

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