Love is real love is true,all you have to do is believe.I believe that love is unbelievable I believe it sets you free. All my life I wondered what it would be like to have found love,and I have someone who completes my whole being.He completes my whole being my reason for being. He is my everything he is my beat of my heart when I wake up and the light that shines when I look in face that glow that brings me what I call real love. Most guys are users and don't want to be a real man and take care of what they have too. I think their just afraid of what is to come or to happen in their life. They wonder if goodness is to come if they actually start to love and let someone love them. I found that man that will let me love him and be loved. I tried for so long going in and out of relationships that where just failures they didnt see what was good. I wasn't always perfect but they weren't neither. I made mistake after mistake. I went through trials and tribulations even times when I denied that he didn't love me.I couldn't see that it wasn't real. Real men are there for you when you cry to hold you keep you safe. Real Men are there for you at your worst even times when your being so retarted. Their they for you when your a bitch and you just feel like you want everybody to leave and disappear. Those who stand by you through those things are the real deal. I think I've been a totally bitch at times where if I was him I would leave ,but the real thing is he loves me . This is reality,and I love him with my whole heart and soul. He has made me change and realize that I can have the better things in life. The better things in life that doesn't include having a jerk and a playa in your life. Games is games and there always going to be games nothing is going to change about those games you just got to realize to LET IT Go!! If you want to be sitting around all by yourself your whole life go ahead,but just realize that one is waiting for you .All you have to do is search your soul for him. Life is life leave it to the fullest yeah but why live it in misery when you can find your soul mate . If you don't have him there with you through it all and he's not keeping it real let his ass go. God put us here to find that one that one could be in front of your face but you was too dumb the whole time to realize it, because you want to linger and hang on to the misery. Stop bringing the misery to your self. I stopped because there is so much more than pain,and you can have complete happiness,love dreams can come true. If you can't be your self with that person and you can't comfortably be you than that is a waste. Love your self and the one your with!!I love you Josh you are my one and only always 4 Eva until we die and the after life...He's a real Man there for me and the kids and we are happier than we ever been don't doubt your self and be afraid to be happy cause you can be happy .Also to the men they can too not every girl is a bad one. =)

All of us face times when we wonder if we will ever laugh again I have know those moments and wondered where laughter has gone, only to discover that laughter cloaks itself in disguise and springs out from its hiding place to surprise uswhen we are most garroted with the enormity of life; it shouts, Olly, Olly, oxen free! it invites us to rush to lifes game again , to cast aside for the moment the weights of labor and responsibility, and to roll down the greening hillside, over and over tumbling faster, bumping , plummeting strangling for air between chortled shouts and gasps laughter is Gods good friend.

If I could , I'd write for you a rainbow and splash it with all the colors of God and hang it in the window of your being. So that each new Gods morning your eyes would open first to hope & promise


If I could I'd wipe away your tears and hold you close forever in shalom.
But God never promised I could write a rainbow never promised I could suffer for you,Only promised that I could love you I do.