Tomorrow will be one month since my uncle Aahz died. He effected many people's lives. I was one of his oldest nieces. He gave me advice on any and everything. He is the reason why I am the way I am. Lately I haven't been me though. His death has effected me a lot. It has defiantly changed me. I used to go to every classe. Now I don't really got to any of them. I love him so much. He is the reason why I give people second chances. He taught me that everyone make mistakes and they all deserve a second chance no matter what they did. He taught me to help people even if they won't help you back. He taught me that life isn't about revenge or getting even with people. Its about making friends and learning about different people. He taught me that people get what they deserve. He taught me that for every bad thing I did to someone it would come back and bite me in the ass 10 times harder. He taught me my friends and family should be the most important things in the world to me. He taught me that money is just paper and it isn't everything. He taught me to love. He taught me the way a guy is suppose to treat me and I not to settle for anything less. He taught me all about life. He was there for me through so much. He was a man of his word. If he promised something to you he wouldn't break his promise. Everything he did was for someone else. He lived his life and it effected everyone. His death was so sudden. I don't think he will ever know how much he meant to me. I drew up a little something in memory of him and I will put a pic of it up here soon. If it wasn't for him I would be a totally different person. He did so much good. He would have given his life for any one of his friends or family members. He was an amazing man. Everything he did was amazing. He never did anything that wasn't. His life was short. He shouldn't have died. He will always be in every person's heart that he was a part of their life. He looked like the scariest man in the world but he really was just like one giant teddy bear. He loved so many people, and so many people loved him. If you needed something he would find a way to get it to you. He told you the truth no matter what. When there was something wrong he was there. If you were sad he knew exactly what to do to cheer you up. There was no way not to love him. He wouldn't have wanted people crying for him. But sometimes I can't help but cry. He was such a great guy. He really didn't deserve to die. But they say the good die young. He wanted a party instead of a funeral. And that's what we did. We partied in his honor. He always put his two cents in everything. He could be annoying at times but he did it because he loved you. I will always have his voice stuck in my head. The voice that tells me that I deserve everything in the world. The voice that tells me not to settle for a loser who can't support himself let alone support me too. The voice that tells me I'm not a screw up. That I am young and I make mistakes. The voice that tells me to learn from those mistakes. The voice that told me he loved me. I will miss the great hugs I got everytime he came over. The running around playing football or something. I will miss the times where he sat me down and talked to me about boys and life. I will miss the dinners we had. And sitting down and watching football and eating pizza together.He was more then an uncle to me. He was my best friend. He was like a second father. I love him with all my heart. I could never not love him, no matter what happens. There will be boys and they will break my heart. But my uncle would look at me and say "Mariah if they broke up with you then they are idiots. You are amazing and don't settle for someone that isn't as amazing as you." I miss you Aahz. So much. I know that he is waiting for me where ever he is. Rest in piece Aahz. You will always be in all of our hearts forever. We miss you so much. We will always love you. You were an amazing person and loved by many.

R.I.P Aah

Missy you were the best cousin I could ask for. You and I were more like sisters then cousins. You were the big sister I always wanted. You knew everything about me. I remember my mom used to always go to you and ask you what I wanted for Christmas or my birthday. I remember when you locked me in the closet. I was so mad at you. And there was the time when we threw cake into the pool and told my mom that Ruben did it.... Anyways.. What I am trying to get at is Thank you for everything... It was so hard to see you lying sick in that hospital bed... I was so mad at you for leaving me... I blamed myself. I thought since I was so bad God was taking away the one thing I loved more than anything. Since then I realized that God was only taking his angel back... I miss you like crazy girl.. Its been four years and I still cry like a baby when its your birthday or when Christmas comes around.. I listen to our song all the time.. I cry alot... I wish you were here.. I know you are watching me right now as I type this.. I know you are probably crying as you read this.. You taught me alot.. I will always remember those days when we would get into trouble together.. Although you were 13 years older then me you always were there for me.. I remember the day you died.. I was in the waiting room.. And they came out and told me.. Then they all went back to see you.. But they wouldn't let me see you... There was only one person that comforted me.. That was RJ.. You used to always say that me and him were gonna get married.. I don't think that's gonna happen but you really did love that kid.. And I love him too but not like that. I always make sure you have white roses on your grave.. I know how much you loved them.. I love you Missy. And I miss you..

You spend your life looking for Love. Love is what Life is about.When you are young you don't care about love.You play with ur friends and don't care about what people are your friends.Then you grow up and you want to be popular. You want everyone to know you. You try to be with all those rude people. You listen to what your friends want you to do. You listen to them about what guys to date and not to date. You search and search for that guy but you only give the guys that your friends and everyone in the school likes a chance. Why not go for someone that isn't popular. Listen to your heart not your friends. I do that and I never care what people think. If they wanna start drama then start it cus I'll sqwash it. You live your life for love. Why not love to live? What is so wrong with just loving ur life? If you stop and just wait the right guy will come. And you will know when u find him!!

Love Is Life!

~Mariah~