For those of you who read my blogs im sorry i havnt wriiten one in months its because my life is revolving around school, home and work and the freaking HSC. Cant make excues but its ture life seems to make me busy and no time for writing a blog. Oh well im writting one now arent i haha.

There are a few things i will point out here; i dont like people talking shit about me but ill et use to it at least ill give you something to talk about, i dont like being left in the dark by certain friends who are ignoring my existence at school.. I love my GIRLS ( they know who they are) yous are always there for me for the fun times and to be a good friend to me i love you guys so much i dont know where i will be without you guys really. I can laugh at your jokes and bitchy comments about random things we talk about hahaha. Im so looking forwad to Yr 12 Retreat Day. It will be the best outing with the GIRLS hopefully.

im so depressed at my half-yearly report and the outcome of last nights parent teacher interviews. What i dont get is that three of my teachers like my maths, english and ipt teacher say i lack in CONFIDENCE in exam writing and my PDPHE teacher says im totally the most confident person in the class because i ask TOO MANY questions relating tothe syllabus module and i dont know cos i feel so shy and self-confident in my other subjects because they seem harder to understand. MRS FREAKING HARRIS took bloody 20 mins to talk to my parents whent it was supposed to be a 5 min interview haha and my ipt teacher got a lil cranky ahaha.

HSC is stressing me out with the percentage marks and ranks that i end up receving after an asesessemnt is finished. FUCK its shitting me really ranks and percentagers are irrevlevent what doesn it make us think that 43 students in the cohort are ranked higher than you and 109 students in the cohort are lower than you. WHat does that teach us? to work on our ranks and try to beat everyone else in the cohort. FUCK THAT

Work is becoming a stress. I need to NA 5 months off so i can study for the HSC but im too freaking scared to ask to NA alot of months because of HSC i dont know if my manager will let me take time off work to study. SOo i need to ask not be too freaking shy to ask haha.

STUDYING is stressing me out. need to manage my time efficiently and effectively in order to stick with a struct study plan. maybe i should go to the local library, its quiet and peaceful there unlike at home.

In 2 freaking months unitl im finally 18. the age ive always dreamed since i was like 7 years old i have waited like half my lifetime for this day to come and i cant wait too turn 18 and be muy own boss and vote in govrernment elections (random vote haha) and drink till i drop haha, ill get my P's and a car and drive anywhere i want, ill be allowed to go niteclubing and enjoy myself and have fun with friends and family,

I hate public buses screw you busways. Morning on the 755 route at 8:43 inthe morning isnt a good time to be in a bad mood. Bus was so packed like today in the morning and in the afternoon as well and screw you everyday peple cant you catch a taxi or buy a car haha kididng but it pisses me off because i am a school student ahd i have to stand up the whole bus trip to mounty station sand not trying to bump into strangers whilst bus is still moving is freakin hard and annoying.

Anyways there you go haha my blog is complete and feel free to comment. I hope i dont come across as too critical and personal haha lol

laters


- Amanda. S

Jeez havnt had the time to make my own. Oh wells Hey wasupp guys. Its me again. yay. its been a busy few months aye. with school and family lifem keeping me busy. im sorry for not writing a new blog but now i have time to lols. Its been a pretty stressful time for me really. You dont understand what ive been through in the past few months really no would. Life has its ups and downs. Ive realised that friends come and go/ I realised that the girls that you were close friends with became the people i knew. i seriously cant take shit from anyone really. i cant handle being on my own anymore i cant handle not having a good trustworthy friend. i cant handle being alone anymore and you dont understand anything really. you just fucking ignore me like i dont fucking exist. what kind of a person are you? but then again i have to forgive and forget but i cant forget the emotional stress you put me through or the lonliness you made me feel and the feelinf of being unwanted in a big group of girls who dont fucking give a shit about me and how i feel about things and life. You just dont understand what im going through and i can forgive you but i cant forget what you put me through i just cant.

phew glad i got that out. i appreciate my friends wgho really care about me and what goes on in my life and for those who arent my friends you lot just can get stuffed i dont give a damn anymore. i just want to be happy but i still feel anger and hatred inside of me i feel alone and noone understands how im feeling

You watched the ABC more than any other station. Those days are long gone.

You made worms by squeezing your Vegemite or peanut butter crackers together.

The best parties always had fairy bread.

The Waugh twins. Go! Aussie! Go!

Super League almost ruined rugby league in Australia.

Getting the Easter Show guide from the paper and circling all the show bags you wanted.

You thought everyone in America carried a gun and you never wanted to go there because you were scared you'd get shot.

Blinky Bill, Mr Squiggle and Gumby.

SuperTed, Widget The World Watcher and Samurai Pizza Cats.

Going to the Easter Show with a big group of friends from school once you were old enough to go without Mum and Dad.

Doing research for school projects by going to the library or looking up an encyclopaedia rather than using the internet.

Brian Henderson and Richard Morecroft reading the news.

Paul Keating was some guy that ran the country and John Howard became the only PM you really ever knew because you were too young to care before that.

Banana Man, Bangers and Mash and The Raggy Dolls.

Game Boy.

Waking up early everyday to watch Agro’s Cartoon Connection or Cheez TV.

Hey Hey It’s Saturday.

Everyone got the Coke bag at the Easter Show and it was only $10.

Buying those 6 packs of Coco Pops, Fruit Loops, Frosties, Rice Bubbles, Nutri-Grain and Corn Flakes so you could have a different one each day and then opening the packets really carefully and removing the cereal so you'd have a mini wardrobe afterwards. You also most probably just let your parents eat the Corn Flakes.

Trying to make the Rainbow Road shortcut on Mario Kart 64.

Postman Pat, Fireman Sam and Lift Off (that show with the dirty, eyeless doll named EC).

Birthday parties at McDonald's.

A pinch and a punch for the first day of the month. No returns!

The original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.

Crossing your heart, hoping to die, sticking a needle in your eye.

Super International Cricket on the SNES.

Arguing over which was better – Nintendo 64 or PlayStation.

Don’t push me, push a push pop!

Nobody made "not" jokes... NOT!!

Bathurst stopped being Holden vs. Ford and all those European cars came in until they came to their senses.

Who shot Mr Burns?

Watching Captain Planet and then driving your parents mad by always singing the song.

That's so funny, I forgot to laugh.

WWE was WWF and they actually had cool wrestlers like The Rock, Mankind and Stone Cold Steve Austin.

Playing Gran Turismo and MGS on PlayStation.

Roller coasters at Wonderland and the Space Probe, Sydney.

You decorated your room with glow-in-the-dark stickers.

SBS didn’t have any ads. Not that you ever watched it anyway

You played marbles and could name all the different types like blue moon, oily, candy, red wine, galaxy and red devil. You never played anyone for your good marble.

Feeling sad when your Tamagotchi died.

Singing "a ram sam sam, a ram sam sam, guli guli guli guli guli, ram sam sam, a rafi, a rafi, guli guli guli guli guli ram sam sam".

Seeing a small rack of DVDs in the video store and wondering if anyone ever rented them.

Dolly the sheep.

Getting up early to watch the Rage Top 50.

Friends when they were all actually just friends. Why didn't Phoebe and Joey get together?

Sonic the Hedgehog.

Watching The Simpsons back when it was funny, every night on Channel 10.

Power Rangers becoming cooler than the Ninja Turtles, even though the Turtles will always be cooler.

Watching South Park for the first time and being really excited by all the swearing.

Watching Hercules and then being disappointed when Xena Warrior Princess replaced it. Nobody was cooler than Herc.

Smell the cheese.

Vulcan, Tower, Flame... Australian Gladiators.

Pokemon! Gotta catch ‘em all!

Full Frontal, not Comedy Inc.

Wolfenstein, Doom and Duke Nukem.

Downloading music from Napster