Okay, this is my very first shot at blogging, and I am not a very good writer either for that matter, but here goes. The subject for this blog is "Alcoholics vs Foodaholics". I have never really been much of a drinker although I have been known to drink a beer or two when around friends who were drinking....I have never been one to drink when alone...I guess that's a good sign maybe. I have heard that when one prefers to drink alone, that's a sign that there is a problem, but I don't know....like I said, I've never had a lot of experience with alcohol. What I have had a lot of experience with is food and an addiction to it. I am overweight and I recognize I do have a problem with "Foodoholism" (okay, I know that's not really a word, but you get the point). About a month or so ago, I had somewhat of a crisis and I realized that I am gonna have to get this weight off or I am gonna die at an early age because I already have too many odds that are not in my favor. I have a family history of Heart Disease and Diabetes and although I am not "old", I am not as young as I used to be either. It is a fact that after a person passes 30, their motabolism slow down and I am now 35 . Anyway, for the last month or so I have (please excuse my plain english) been working my ass off trying to lose weight. I have really started eating healthier and getting out every evening and taking walks, and I don't mean just a quick walk around the block and that's it, I have been walking until I felt as if my legs wouldn't go anymore. I just recently, just a few days ago found out that I had lost 10 pounds...I was so proud, as I should be.

That is until this weekend (Friday).....I'm afraid that I fell off the proverbial wagon. I went to do some grocery shopping and I came across something that I had not had in a while, it was something that was very fattening. Have you ever seen on TV where someone has a little red demon on one shoulder telling him do do something bad and on the other shoulder, there is an angel dressed in white, trying to steer him in the right direction ? Well, that's what it reminds me of when I think about it, the Angel though, came in the words of Nikki, a friend of mine who told me in an email not long ago to make sure that I did not reward myself (for losing weight) with food. I am sorry to say that the winner of the standoff was the little red demon and the loser was me...Nikki, I wish I had listened. Anyway, I told myself that I could eat a little and leave the rest alone, and I could have if I had used a litlle will power, but I didn't. I ate more than I should and then inevitably, the guilt and anger feelings started to arise, but what did I do ? Did I immediately throw the rest of it in the trash and get back on the wagon ? NO...like a STUPID DUMBASS, I ate some more and went to bed. .



It is now 6:43 Sunday Morning, I woke up at about 5 AM and began writing this about 5:30 I was just sitting here thinking, What is the difference between an Alcoholic and a Foodaholic ? What is the difference between a drinking binge and an eating binge ? Alcoholics are often judged by society to be somekind of God-less, no account, pathetic saps, but if you'll take a look at who is doing the judging, chances are they'll have a huge belly hanging over their belt or a cigarette hangin out of their face. Please don't misunderstand, I am not at all saying that I think my trying to lose weight is the same as an alcoholic trying to quit drinking or a drug addict trying to quit using...I realize that withdrawel from drugs and alcohol have some really serious withdrawel symptoms. All I am talking about is the addiction itself and what happens to a persons mind when the power of the addiction seems to be stronger than the persons willpower. As for me, I feel like I am now back on track now , I am on a journey and I am not gonna let this fall from the wagon detour me from completing that journey. Why did I decide to wri