what do u do when the person who stops your tears is the one who started them?

When I look in your face all I see is fear
Not anger or hatred only a face full of tears
You criticize yourself in every single way
I’ve grown to hate you more and more day by day
All your flaws and imperfection makes you a disgrace
If only there was a way you could just be replaced
You are hideous, unintelligent something that makes me ashamed
In a crowd I can only look at you as an anonymous person unnamed
You spend your whole life trying to impress everyone else
Sometimes I think you forget how to be yourself
You’re despicable and appalling in every point possible
I despise you , that in a way, loving you is impossible
You allow yourself to fall under the pressure of the world’s catastrophic creation
Myself looking at you only fills me with frustration
You are something that I never want to be
But how come I’m looking in the mirror at you, and I see a reflection of me

Tears In My Eyes

Hold out your hands, so I can place my face
I’ll cry you a handful, till all my tears have gone to waste
Ask me what’s wrong, just see what I will say
Tell me how you’re sorry in each in every way
Then tell me you know exactly how I feel
But the pain that I am feeling is so excruciatingly unreal
But could you have seen that look that appeared upon my face
The day they told me he was gone to a better place
Oh Lord these tears I can no longer contain
All the agony in my heart is driving me insane
Tell me Lord why me, why on that day
He left my world without a last simple word to say
I will never understand how this twisted world turns
And why there will be no day that he’ll never return
Just tell me can this be true
These tears will not stop falling from my eyes if you only knew
I have no more hope for my light is no longer on
Everyone I love seems to be gone
The pain in my heart grows more and more everyday
Please someone bend down with me and help me prey
For tomorrow I will no longer hide my fears
I will wipe my face, and stop the tears