I know full well that I, myself, am one of them. I am what I fear, and that is what strives me to be different.
I know exactly what I cant be if I give into the power, the lust, the temptation of it all, and I know that if I crossed that line, that defining point that separates men from monsters that there is no going back.
I can already feel it, like a small demon on my shoulder saying to just do it, screw your morals and code, you know you want to do it, just end her pathetic little life so you can live another day. But I know the angel on my other side will kick his ass if he says any more.

I remember someone once saying that people are born capable of great or terrible things, and then one day something comes along with the right amount of nudge to push us in the right or wrong direction. And I don’t know about you dear reader, but I plan on staying in the middle. I guess you could say I straddle that line between the lesser of two evils anyway.

I can smell her skin, hear the blood being pumped through her body, it’s so close to the surface I could easily just take a little to sustain myself, or a lot to keep the lust at bay. She thinks she wants this life, to walk through the night as a Draculina, but she doesn’t realise the amount of hurt she will have to endure. "Do you really want this sweetheart? Do you know how much pain you will go through from this night onwards? People can sense a difference in their friends, they'll know something is different about you, and will slowly grow suspicious of you, can you really put up with that? Can u handle the fact that you will become a..." I can’t even bring myself to say it out loud, to label myself as that would be a big step, I search to find the most tack way of putting it but alas there is only one word for it... "Monster"
She looks at me with uncertain eyes, yet I already know her answer, it’s the answer of a desperate child, a human child whose life is full of trivial worries and problems. I know those feelings far too well because I have had to live through them myself twice over. "Yes I am ready, yes I am willing, yes I am scared, and yes I want this. I am certain of it, I want to experience the life you have been branded with, but this time instead of being alone like you were I will have you by my side to watch over me, like an angel" my face lightens up with the kind label she gives me but I know I am not an angel, I know I’m partially more sinister than that, because I've seen my wings, & I know they aren’t white any more. "As you wish, my pet" I whisper as I lean forward to begin the process that I know will take away my last shred of humanity.
Her skin tastes so sweet and is so very soft against my lips, I do not wish to mark its flawlessness but what must be done, must be done. I softly kiss the spot where I am to do the dark deed, and with that I sharply bite down on the clavicle of her shoulder and feel the blood well up into my mouth, pure utter ecstasy flows into my veins, I can feel the life drain from her as her body stiffens in my arms, she does not struggle, she simply holds onto me, tightly and bravely.

18th of January 2009 12.59 a.m

Kay, so after hearing about this for years, i decided to actually do it, and that's collecting quotes. i love them, they're great to spit out and say to ppl, or to call up at the right moment.

so here we go, the first ones ill put here are ones i found on this new Webcomic ive started reading called "The Zombie Hunters". they are the note given at the begining of each note on the class/race of Zombie.


BASILISK
"Gaze into my eyes, and you shall see.
I will make you a stone.
I will make you a tree.
Time will stop for you, but it cannot stop for me."


this ones kinda the more boring out of the whole lot, but if u read it, it makes sense.


CRAWLER
"We are many, we are the same, and we travel together, going on this long and lifeless, crawl."


HOWLER
"I sing a song.
I sing the song of death.
You will listen, and you too shall die, and sing the song of death with me."



HUNTER
"You can run from me,
You can hide from me,
You can cross the ocean, climb the highest mountain, or even fly from me.
But I will always find you, before you will ever find me.
I give you my word."



MERCY
"I'm sorry that I hurt and scared you so.
Let me hold you in my arms, and comfort you while you cry.
Keep still now. Don't struggle. Don't run.
I will protect and watch over you, and I will sing to you, you can rest now. It's all over.
And until you feel no more pain, and you draw your last breath, and until your heart beats for the last time, I will stay and hold your hand and remain with you, until you slip into the lifeless black."


SPITTER
"I am sick for all eternity.
I am in permanent state of vertigo.
My head pounds,
My fever raises,
My insides wither and crawl like snakes.
Let me show you what's making me so under the weather."

And my personal favourite.

BERSERKER:
"I am fear, I am hate, and I am rage. I am a demon's demon.
I loathe and despise you.
You are alive, where I am no longer.
I shall make you suffer for what you are, as I suffer for what I am."

Hey all, this is just me recording things that i have learnt thus far seeing as this year is almost at a close. some of you will read this and think too yourself "wow i know what he's on about there, i remember that" and that's the whole point.

- Car crashes: Suck.

- Raging Asians: You wouldnt want to mess with them.

- Bad days: Can get a lot worse.

- Mates: stick by each other during the hardest times.

- Mistakes: can happen, but when you look back at it, was it for the greater good?

- Patients: Pays off in the end.

- Worrying: too stressful

- Fun and games: it is, till someone's hair is on fire.

- Choices: Making the best one for yourself isnt always the easiest, and also btw, save your dog it helps.

- Forethought: AKA planning, DON'T, things just happen, let them.

- Showing off: When you have an ego as large as mine, its great

- Workplace: The people are great(most of them), but the job sucks.

- Old Friends: make life a little weird when shit hits the Fans.

- WoW: Teh Very Best... Fepic as bro.

- Chips: Nah i'm too beached bro.

- Boxes: dangerous in small confined spaces.

- Vans: just one more thing to take your anger out on.

- Trent Reznor: or was it Marilyn Manson, i can never remember, carson wana give me a hand with this one??

- Slipknot: you dont even know bro, you weren't there, and if you were, welcome to the house of 9 brother.

- Nymphetamine: sex full stop.

- Wellington: I miss her.

- M. Shadows: Fucken Tank.

- Jack Daniels: Most of the time my best friend... most of the time.

- Deftones: Most specifically; Change in the house of flies and passenger... Sex again.

Learning a lesson: not ever going to happen to me, i just dont listen to people, Isnt that right Amy?

- True Blood: fucken kewl as idea, love it.

- Books, love em, also hate mine.

- Email address: after 5 years it makes sense to me now.

- Fable 2: Hero your will energy is low, watch that.

- MGS4: Snake?... Snake!?.... Snnaakee!!!!!???

- DMC4: needs moar rape arm... rape this, rape that. everthings a rape monster aye danny?

- Hurt: Vol. II, best chillax album ever for me.

- CD's: I miss them.

This list will continue to grow, just wanted to record the ones that stand out the most atm.

Ant.