Its like 12:33 on sunday and i can't be stuffed doign homework. I know i should but it just seems annoying and frustrating. I got all my maths done last night but still i think i may have failed the maths sac........ Katies 18th was on frday it was awsome i now have a really sore shoulder and arm but hats oka ... i t just felt amazing( it was rollerbalding) i could forget everything and just focus on makign it around.... I manged to go really fasyt. I don't think bel enjoyed herself very much but she gpt the hang of it by the end. ok this is really hurting my arm so ill write more some other time luv me

Wow well life sure ain't getting any better jens in hospital and i know shes okay but stil i cant' help but be worried is that stupid?? and i think sarah is annoyed at me... i sent around a group sms informing everyone that jen was sick and in hospital but stef got worried and called sarah and told her it was a stupid message and that it would make everyone panic so sarah said to me well it wasn't a very good message it made everyone freak out.. but kt said that it was a good message and that it told the nessasary details and that she was okay and that no one would freak out because i wrote it ok so there hows that for confusing but i don't think stef likes me so i guess that shouldn't suprise me but i don't even know why she dosn't like me and jen nearly died the intensive care doctor said that it was toucha nd go for a while you don't say that unles it really was and the i looked up bactirial menigius on the net wow that freaked me out even more but at work today nicloe was very calming so that was good and shes good to talkt to and different to my friends i can tel her stuff ic ant' tell them but there stuff i can't tell her.. ok bye for now sam

well its the last day of term to damn scary if u ask me..cos that means high schools nearly over and that is a concept im still tryign to grasp.. i mean who wil i talk to next yr??? will anyone keep in contact wiht me or will i have to do al the work... and then there is the even worse issue of finishing high school without ever havign been kissed. It just seems wrong so hopefully we can fix that one but first id have to find a guy who'd want to kiss me and im really not sure how lucky im goign to be in that area it seems guy are never goign to like me its quite depressing really but oh well.... i plan to go on a diet this hols and keep it up for well forever and maybe that will hope cos im kinda stuck for anyother ideas.. i hope this hols are fun ppl are busy ad crap in various weeks but thats cool ill try and make my own fun if you can do that when you have intierly no life cos ur a lame humane who is going to grow up and seriously regret how staight i have been throughout the whole of my child hood but hell to late to change that now. NOw that i think on it am i adding to my pathetic ness just by writing in this damn thing for the whole god damn world to read but i guess at least then im sharign my problems and maybe ppl might help and be supportive or they could just be assholes and tel me that everyone has problems and that i should grow up well der i know everyone has problems but my problems are importantto me and there allowed ot be as they are my problems and if u don't want ot read about them the shove off okay.. good gald we've got that out of the way... now on to my issues, i feel ugly, unattractive and i thinki doomed to be single forever, plus all my friends are like tottaly fgourgeous which dosn't help and school is just so much pressure cos i want ot do well but at the same time i want to say fuck it all what does it matter.... well ok then thanks for listning whoever is currently reading this its been a good hlep its nice to get your emotions out you should try it sometime. hugs and kisses sam