I feel so sad right now and im not exactly sure why. I suppose it is because this is my last christmas break in high school and this means school is half over. Some days i cant wait to get out and get away from all the "drauma" that comes with high school, but in some ways im going to miss it. Im going to miss all my friends, esp. when they all go away to other states to school. im going to miss not having to work for the grade in school, and im going to miss just having a routine that you are used to. I know what high school life is like; it is familiar and it feels safe. I guess i feel like im going to kinda be dumped once i get out, like im going to be on my own and have no help when i need it. Im not sure where im going to live in college yet, or where my family is going to live for that matter, but i just wish things were more certain. I know this is the next step in my life, im just not sure im ready to take it...

So, i went to our playoff game at school vs. riverdale. It was so sad. When the game was over, all the senior guys were crying after the huddle; i felt so sorry for them. But, being the loyal fan that i am..i yelled for them till the last min of the game and in return lost my voice that night and most of today. I think i am going to get sick b/c i was freezing last night and i had on 4 layers. I also went to the UT game today. It was awful!! I cant believe the one game i go to this season they lose to vanderbuilt...they havent lost to them in like 22 years!! I think i am a football curse lol. Then there was a wreck on the way home between crossville and knoxville and we had to take a detour on airport road and we went on a wild goose chase of many wrong turns that took us 30 miles out of the way to get 17 miles down the interstate lol. Anyway, i am really tierd cause i was up at 5:30 this morning, so im going to bed.

ash

Ahhhh i HATE starting school! The whole idea of having to sit in desks all day long, listening to teachers rage on about a bunch of crap none of us care about or will ever need does not sound like fun..wow i feel better getting that out now. Anywho i have Honors Anatomy and Phy., econ, gov, clinical rotation, chorus, and something else to replace the advanced algebra and trig class i am dropping. If anyone has any ideas on some cool, fun classes, let me know. I have ms jones for gov. 1st, i have Mrs payne for english 2nd, i have anatomy, and phy 3rd with mrs jones, i have chorus 4th with choate, an empty 5th, and clincal rotation at the hospital 6th. It is going to take some serious getting used to this new schedule. so many classes...so little time. The good news is i have a top locker for once, it is #445, and my parking is #364. Anyway ive got to get out of here and go to a tnt in a few so ill post later

ash