'Tis the season of summer. The heat brings lethargic action and enjoyment of inventions like air conditioners, automatic ice-makers, and safari hats with holes in the brims sporting little battery-powered fans in the holes. My dreams have become vivid and colorful again. I think the greys of winter tint them. . . though, not really sure. The enjoyment value of dreaming is heightened in the summer time, even if the word "heightened" is in my pocket translator. I stay cool and close to cool things during this time of family reflection and memories of relatives here and gone. My thoughts turn to the song lyric: ". . . we're just spinning on some granite, that we'd like to call a planet; and if you need to contemplate, well, here's an optimistic thought".

June 9th, 2005

Today brought ideas of commitment forward and carreer aspirations fell second. The idea of keeping vs. having at the moment left much for the imagination. It is nice to have a job, at the moment, but the lack of commitment within my carreer and between my colleagues has much to be desired. I am a happy person today. Although, life after work is another story and another journal entry all together. I must announce that hypocracy runs rampant in my carreer, and in my personal life as well. But, I am able to separate them (i.e., work life and personal life) as well as can possibly be without too many stressful experiences.

I will continue as long as the powers that be allow me to do so. . . so, to summarize; I have little faith in people's goodness today, yet it does exist somewhere in my actions that I will change my mind tomorrow. I need a new experience.

May 9th, 2005

I have too many intuative language examples to fully express myself today, so I'll be brief. After a nice vacation, my work has become more entertaining and productive. My new position here in Tokyo has given me strength that I hadn't realized before. I am moving through my time in Japan with confidence at a relative speed. Teaching has brought new breath to my voice. As a famous musical group once performed. . . "and so today, my world, it smiles."