Retardation Percentage
[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting' you.
[x] You have run into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[ ] You have run into a lampost

T 0 T A L: 3

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm. (wow)
[x] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.

T 0 T A L: 4

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[x] You've never seen the Matrix. (wut's wrong with not having seen the MAtrix?
[ ] You type only with two fingers
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire (aka my homework!)
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling. (ok so my nervous sytem isn't quite so intact)

T 0 T A L: 3

[x] You have fallen asleep in class
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".

T 0 T A L: 3

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[x] You have eaten a bug accidently.
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

T 0 T A L: 5

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before (yea so....?)
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling. (but there are pictures in the texture of the ceiling!)
[x] The word "um" is used many times a day.
[ ] You had to use a calculator to add this up.

T 0 T A L: 4

A L T O G E T H E R: 22

NOW, take that number and multiply it by 3

66%

OK so I think I already knew that I am rather retarded by hey for those of you who never believed be here's hard proof. DON"T DENY IT!!! lol....

Had prefects dinner last night to finish off the year and it was going great. I wasn't too tired and miserable and was having a wonderful time till a conversation steered toward a particular subject that had caused me a lot of grief this year and I got incredibly worked up about it. So I'm guessing that would explain the reason it took me 2.5hrs to fall asleep (crying my way to bed was the easiest way). But then I woke up 3hours later at about 3 in the morning and couldn't fall asleep. So laid in bed till 5 and decided to get up.

Went to school a early to pull a prank on a teacher (it was my last day of "official classes" at OG's) cause I just couldn't sit around and I thought that by tiring myself more I would hopefully be able to get some sleep. By the time school had started, tried to sleep in my period 1 class (I had a free period) but couldn't. So decided to go to town with some friends after we were dismissed early and now I feel a whole lot worse. Everything head to toes, every muscle and joint hurts. ARGHH!!

To make it even worst, I am meant to be studying for exams. I have my 1st one on Mon and I feel like absolute crap. Not just physically but emotionally as well....

Hopefully I can get a wee bit more sleep tonight. I wish I could have walked out of the school gates today feeling incredibly happy and proud of myself for surviving 3.5 yrs of high school with M.E. but instead I felt like disappear and never come back again.

Just needed to kill sometime while my bed was getting warmed up by the electric blanket so nite nite I guess

It really truly sums it up. So if you're not quite with it here's the layman's intro that I found to ME/CFS

The Rollercoaster Ride - A poem about living with CFS

You look at me now and you may see a grin
But I'm a person who can't enjoy many things.
I suffer from that thing called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
So most of my days are spent alone at home.
I can't go out like you do and have some fun
That's because I'm twice as tired when I'm done.
I don't recover like you do with one night's sleep
Sometimes it's like I haven't had even a peep.

But you don't understand and you never will
Unless you've had this and gone down that hill.
You go down so fast and don't know what's wrong
But the willpower inside tells you to hang on.
You suddenly realise your life has dropped
While people around you continue with theirs and never seem to stop.
They look at you and encourage you along
Because they don't see what's truly wrong.

It's a debilitating illness which is so hard to fight
There's no one way to get it, nor one way to make it right.
We suffer for ages trying all different things
When all the time, our life's hanging by strings.
Depression sets in and sets up home in your mind
It's the courage inside that one must now find.

So many times you feel like giving up
Running away from it in the hope it will stop.
But you can't leave now cause you're not well enough
Fighting this thing seems to be getting more tough.
One day you feel good and want to do so many things
But the more you do, the more suffering later it brings.
It's like a rollercoaster ride going up and down
One days it's all smiles, the next week all frowns.

We try to stay positive with all our might
But after such a long time, you feel like you're losing the fight.
No doctor can give a perfect remedy, nor specialists the elusive cure
So we live in hope and wonder how much more we must endure.
We see people with colds and flus complain
But a week down the track, they're all better again.
They don't understand how an illness can last so long
And judge the stability of our minds as being the part that's wrong.

Our friends who always happened to be there
All of a sudden have disappeared.
We can't go to parties or get together like before
So now they see us as unsociable and ask no more.
The invitations stop coming and the phonecalls are less
It's now you find out who your true friends are I guess.
Even when we have a good day
Our friends and partner have gone away.

Our world is one of loss and fear
While trying to stay strong and head clear.
We don't chose to live our days like this
Who would want to jeopardize career, friends and bliss.
So don't judge us by your first perception
Unless you know all about, or have suffered from this condition.

What helps us along is your compassion and understanding
A shoulder to lean on and sometimes a tissue to cry in.
So treat us normal, the only difference is our limitations
We're still the same people, with just a few complications.
I'll continue to fight and try my best
Then one day I'll be back to normal like you and the rest.
This is to help you understand how having this illness feels
And how your understanding can help me heal.