Looking at those around me, seeing the love that they have for one another, Unconditional love... even if the other does not have complete success in making the other proud. just the effort alone is enough to develop smiles amongst those faces.
But where is the smiles i so long for. those smiles who will smile no matter what i do. or say in my cage i call my life. what is left to do once ive aquired the world and i open my eyes to stil see the frowns.

A friend once told me of the unconditional love that parents have for their sons and daughters. though such a statement seems but only a dream for me.
for the world is mine they say...
but what if the world they want from me isnt the world i want at all.

The world where Money runs all, Where success is the reason why people become your friends, such a world, so cruel... but it is the only way i shine...

Where is the world i used to live in, where success was not the reason for being loved...where my friends just wanted to see me. and only me, and didnt care less for what i would become to make them proud.

A world seems so far for my hands to reach.

what do i live for, when my own family do not understand.

only to wonder of how much i can help and provide for them at this moment. and that is the factor of measurement for how much they should love me.

this is a world where i have to work for their love.

my only quest in life... is to make them proud and hope they dont regret having me as a son.

its what i live for.

this is my world.

Alvin G. De Leon

Please hear my call...


Sometimes.. i wonder why people want so many things from me. they want things that i never thought i needed in life. they say they love me so i listen to every word ..every piece of advice. every call that they have for me.

Sometimes i wonder why people judge me, for what they see infront of them, im not what many think i am. ...im so much more...or so much less.

When you can live forever...the world is yours.

but what if the world i want..is you..

that you are my world...

you make me smile...you make me laugh...you make me wonder if anything else in the world is needed.

or just you by my side.

you know who you are...i care about you so much, even though i may not say it.

I think of you so much, even though i may not say so.

When i can live forever..cannot die, cannot fear, cannot hurt.

There is nothing to live for.

for you..i will become mortal once again.

save me..

Alvin De Leon

U ANNOYED ME AT FIRST SIGHT COZ U LOOKED LYK A TRY HARD TONGAN DUDE...WHO LOOKED LYK AN ASIAN...HAHAHAHAHA...
BUT SOON BECAME A TRYHARD WANNABE SAMOAN COZ U WANTED TO BE AS KOOL AS ME..anywayz...
ur tha koolest asian twin brutha in tha world!!!!!!!!!

TO BE CONTINUED...
(IM AT WORK SO I DNT REALLY HAV TYM...APPRECIATE IM TAKING TYM OF FOR U BITCH!!!...LOL...JOKES)