Life is: Loving when you are unloved, holding on when you want to let go, trusting in Gods wisdom when we think our way is better, giving when no one gives back, and then thanking God for His mercy and the strength to go on.

Here's a song that I love, because when you or someone else is hurting this says everything I want to say but normally can't.

[Gal. 6:2; Luke 5:18-20]

I will not pretend to feel the pain you're going through
I know I cannot comprehend the hurt you've known
And I used to think it mattered if I understood
But now I just don't know

Well, I'll admit sometimes I still wish I knew what to say
And I keep looking for a way to fix it all
But we know we're at the mercy of God's higher ways
And our ways are so small

But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees

It's such a privilege for me to give this gift to you
All I'd ever hope you'd give me in return
Is to know that you'll be there to do the same for me
When the tables turn

And if you need to cry go on and I, I will cry along with you, yeah
I've given you what I have but still I know the best thing I can do
Is just pray for you

I'll carry you
I'll take you to Jesus on my knees

hmmmmmm were to start....... Well life has been extremely busy and odd these past few weeks. I have been working a whole lot but thats ok because it brings me a few dollars closer each time until I can buy a new truck. I read a book these past seveal weeks called "Brokenness" by Lancy Le Demoss and it totally changed my life. God used it again and again to show me where I'm not a truly broken Christian and that essence of brokenness is being humble. All brokenness really is according to the book was me dieing to myself and becoming humble before God and man. Which for me as those of you know who know me well being humble isn't an easy thing. There are so many times that I think I have rights and that I deserve somthing or other but when it boils down to it I really deserve nothing and am blessed that God sawe fit to save my soul. If we could only grasp the great love that God has for us I don't think we would ever live the same.
Some exciting news is that I was accept to go on the DR trip. I know that God is going to show me tons of things and will continue to work on certain things in my life as well on this trip. Although there are some leasons that I'm not looking forward to learning, but I know that I desperately need it. l
Last Saturday was the paintball party for Joel and it was tons of fun lots of paintball, swimming, and wrestling/beating/boxing. His family did a great job of hosting all of us and making the time super enjoyable. I still have some of my wounds from it but thats part of the game and (if you ask me its kindof cool).