Well its been well over a year since i even visited this website!!! Let's see since then I have gave birth to a beautiful baby boy..Shane Emry Cain...he was born October 13 of 2008!! He ismy pride & joy & the main man in my life!! Me & Allen r still very happily married & have been for 2 years!! We are now expecting our 2nd child in march of 2010!! Seems like Allen just cant stop gettin my prego!! Bug oh well I love him & love havin a family!!!

Last time I wrote in 07 I said i was due in September 07, but unfortunately we lost that child in March. Then In june i made the best decision of my life and allen and I made ourselves one. we said i do at 3pm, on the 25th. In october we found out i was pregnant again. But shortly after i lost that one too. There were so many haters in my life and so many people draggin me down, that my body was at an all time high on the stress level. Finally allen and i got our own place, we got away from all the BS and all the people who had nothing better to do in their life than to talk shit, and i got pregnant again. Now im 4 1/2 months. Were gonna make it this time. Im so happy. So if you think your happy, you honestly dont know. If youve ever had your heartbroken then youve never truly ecperienced true love because if your truly in love with someone, then they have to truly love you back, or its not true love at all if it was, your heart wouldnt be broken, they would have mended it the first time they said hello, and noone could ever bring you down again. Trust me I know!

It's amazing when i look back and see all the things i wrote about will. I really thought we had something. I thought he honestly cared. But now that I have allen i see me and will did have something, just one thing, that was sex. When Im lying next to Allen and my heart starts to ache from just how much I love him, it makes me laugh to think that I ever actually loved someone else. All I felt for will was lust. He never cared and now that I look back, I think the sex is all I was interested in. He was a good friend, but thats it.