Went to the beach this morning...had a leaders meeting there! At 8 am mind you! It was awesome...had a ball. Spent the morning looking after a 11 month old baby girl. She's beautiful. Some lady told me and her dad that we had a beautiful daughter. haha. We just said thanks. Was quite funny really.
But then something happened. I started thinking. When will I get married? When will I have kids? When will i find someone whom I can love and cherish? When will that someone find me? It's a long and ongoing argument I have with myself. Pretty much on a daily basis really. I so desperately want to settle down in the near future. I could if i wanted to. I know where to find him. But he's not what I want. HAve you ever noticed that when you want something so badly, something totally wrong disguised as the thing you want pops up. I hate that thing that isnt what I thought it was. I dont mean I hate that person. I just hate what he represents.
And another thing. Whats with mental illness!?!?! I hate it! Hate it Hate it Hate it! Thats all i really have to say on the matter...

Ok so i realised that i dont journal much anymore and I have lots to say and no one to say it to...So, I figured...BLOG! It's ingenious really.

I was planning on heading out to the beach today, so I was doing the usual, matching my cossie with my clothes and I realised, I HAVE SO MANY CLOTHES!!! Really I do. And I only just gave 4 bags away to market day. i dont understand. Where does it all come from? Surely I dont spend that much. Surely. Hmmmm...come to think of it, I probably do. Thats awful. I have so much stuff in my room with no real purpose or need. Do I really need to have every coloured chesty bonds that was ever produced? Do i really need to have 7 pairs of fisherman pants? I think not! Considering my tithing really isnt frequent enough to justify spending that much money of clothes. OK. New decision. I"m going to continue on my road to living more simply. Only I really am going to do it. I'm going to give away more, and purchase less. Tithe will have to go up too. I know God gives me so much and I give so little. Yes, we humans are quite selfish without realising it arent we. Sucks indeed.

For your peace of mind, I didnt go to the beach. Had to come to church to do someo work.