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Da Sun Hit My Eye From The Window, I Rubbed My Eyes And Sat Up. I Dint Feel Well, Kinda Warm, Something Dint Feel Right. I Just Noticed Im Not Home. I Turned And Der Was Some One Laying Beside Me.
I Got Out Da Bed Looking 4 My Cloths. I Stop 4 Sec, Den Leon Name Pop't In My Head And I Dropped 2 Da The Floor, He's Gonna Kill Me.
I Grabbed My Bag And Started Searching And Searching, Den My Phone Feel Out, I Struggled To Hold It In My Hands, I Went Thrw The Call List. I Had So Many Missed Call From Leon Its Unbelievable, I Dnt Even Knows Whoz House Dis Is, Im In So Much Shit.
I Started To Think Ov Wat Happen Last Night.
I Turned Round And He Was Asleep, Noting Happened, Well I Think, I Hope So. No Something Did Happened We Had Sex, I Had Sex Wit Trey, Leon Gonna Kill Me, Im Gonna Die, Leon's Gonna Killl Me, Really Gonna Get It Dis Tym. Im Dead. He's Gonna Kill Me Im Dead. I hate Myself Right Know.
Oh God Take Me Away.
I Started Crying While Looking 4 Der Rest Ov My Thinngs. I've Got To Get Out Ov Here B4 He Wakes Up. I Was Packing My Thingz In My Bag I Felft Someone Touch Me. I Turned Round And It Was Trey.
Trey: Wats Wrong Bbz.
No Answer Kept Packing Me Things. He Sat Behind Me Wit Me Between His Legs, He Rapped His Handz Round My Waist. I Dint Pay Much Attention Just Thinking Wat Leon Gonna do To Me. Then Trey Started Kissed My Neck.
Me: Trey Plz.
Trey: Till You Tell Me Wats Wrong.
He Dint Say Anything, It Was Silent He Was Waiting 4 Me Say Something, Then He Started Kissing My Neck Again. I Was Wearing A Baggy T-Shirt, He Started Touching Me Up. I Dnt Know Wat Took Over Me I Started Moaning.
My Head Tilted Back On His Shoulder Den His Lips Wer Sitting On Mine Den He Gave Me A Peck, Then He Kissed Me And He Kissed Him Back. Then We Had A Passionate Kiss. He Pulled Away And Looked At Him And I Feel Deep In His Eyes.
Me: We Cnt Do Dis. Leon.
Trey: Wer Having Our Moment.
He Passionate Kissed Me Again But I Pulled Away B4 He Sucked Me In. I Grabbed My Things And Thrw Them On The Bed. I Stood On One Side Ov The And He Was On The Other Side Facing Him. I Took His Top Ov And I Was In My Underwear.
I Put My Cloths Back On. Trey Stood Against Da Door Just Watching Me. I Dnt Wanna Ask Why Cuz It Will Start Conversation. I Was Don And Walked 2wardz Da Door.
Trey: You Going Back To Him.
Me: If You Mean Leon. Yes.
Trey: I See, You Going Back To Man How Doz Not Know How To Treat You.
He Pushed Himself Of The Wall And Held My Hand.
Trey: You Need Someone Who Wonts You, Treat You like A Queen Not A Slave. Im Here 4 You, But You Making It Hard At Tymz. Wen I Try You Push Me Away. And Last Night....
Me: Last Night Was A Mistake, We Had Sex Noting Else. I Dnt Even Remember Wat Happened.
Trey: Your Wrong, It Was Not A Mistake And We Made Love.
Trey: But Yes And You Enjoyed It. You May Wonna Pretend It Dint Happen Or You Liked It.
He Held My Chin And Kissed My Cheek.
Trey: Remember Trust Me.
Me: Trust Me Wen I Say We Cnt Be And It Will Betta If Staff Farr Away From Each Other.
I Left His Room And Ran Out The House.
I Got Chelsea's House And Rang The Bell, Chelsea Opened The Door And Pulled Me In And Took Me To Da Living Room.
Me: So Wat?
Chelsea: Oh Plz, Trey Text Me.
Me: Wat Do You Mean.
Chelsea: I Tolds Trey 2 Come To Da Club, Den He Told Me He Wonted To talk. He Loves You Bbz.
Me: I Dnt Love Him.
Chelsea: Yes You Do.
Me: 4get It.
I Stood Up.
Me: I Slept Wit A Guy Who Wasn't Leon.
Chelsea: YOU SLEPT WIT TREY!
Me: SHHHHH! It Was A Mistake.
Chelsea: Or Destiny.
Me: Chels, Have You 4goting. My Boyfriend, Leon.
Chelsea: Fuck Him.
Chelsea: Ok Dnt Worry Leon Called, I Told Him You Got Sick And Went To Bed And I Took Your Phone And Turned It Of.
Me: Thx Bbz.
Jumpped On Her Lap And Hugged Her T
1 Comment 135 weeks
The Girls Are Taking Me Out To Celebrate My New Management, Im Blessed.I Jst Finished Taking My Shawa So I Went 2 Da Bed Room. After The Clud I'm Going 2 Stay Da Night At Chelsea's.
To Dey Gonna Be A Good Night I Can Feel. Neo Leon, Jusr Me And Me Girls. Spet The Whole Day With Eden, Went Shopping And I Got New Cloths, 4 Me And Eden. But To Night Im Going To Look Good.
Im Wearing A Pink Ruffle Neck Keyhole Top, Black Yves Saint Laurent Heals, Dark Blue Skinny Jeans, Big Gold Hops, Hip Hop Necklace, Gold Bracelets and Black Gucci Hand Bags. I Looked In The Mirror And Smiled.
I Left The Room And Went To Da Living Room A Watch Leon And Eden Playing Wit Snap Wit The Spongebob Cards.
Me: Ok Im Of.
Eden Ran Up To Me And Hugged Me Tight.
Eden: You Look Nyc Mummy.
Me: Thank You Bbz.
I Hugged Her Again And Kissed Her On The Cheek.
Leon: Yh Bbz You Look Nice. Eden Need To Talk To Mummy.
She Smiled And Ran Of, To Watch Tv. Leon Got Closer.
Leon: So Its Just Gonna Be You And The Girls.
Leon: You Betta Not Be Meeting Other Guysz.
Me: You Don't Have 2 Worry Only Gonna Be Wit Da Girls.
Leon: Ok Den. Your Going To Your Cuzin's?
Leon: Im Gonna Be Calling Every 1 Hour, You Best Pick Up.
Me: I Will.
I Opened The Door But He Quickly Grabbed My Hand And Pulled Me Back.
Leon: You Betta Pick Up Yor Phone.
Me: Your Hurting Me.
Leon: Promise Me.
Me: I Promise.
He Let Go Ov My Hand.
Leon: Srry Bbz, Just Dnt Wont You Meeting Other Guys. Ur Mine.
He Gave Me A Peck On da Lips, I Puled Apart And I Left And Got In Da Car And Drove Of. Leon Is Pissing Me Of, Acting As If Im Up To Something, It Shud Be The Other Way Round. And I Stil Fee He's Cheating.
I Got To Chelsea's Yard And Got Out And Walked To Da Door And Rang The Bell. Chelsea Answered The Door And Shouted My Name. I Smiled And The All Gave Me A Group Hug. Eve Handed Me A Glass Ov Red Wine.
We Staid At Chelsea's House 4 A While. I Just Got Of The Phone Wit Leon. The Girls Burst Out Larfin.
Lisa: Ok Girl Let Go.
We All Screamed And Left. We Got Tp The Club And The Girls Wer Have A Good Tym But I Was Sitting Down Watching, Waiting Leon's Call. I Got Up To Sit At The Bar.
Bartender: Excuse Miss.
I Turned To Face Him And He Gave Me Drink.
Me: Srry I Dint Order This.
Bartender: Miss Some Guy Told Me To Send Free Drink All Night.
Me: And Who Is Dis Guy?
Bartender: Srry But He Told Me Not To tell.
He Winked At me and Turned To Another Customer, I Smiled To Myself And Walked Of. I Stood Der Watching Them All Having A Good Tym. Jessica Came Up To Me.
Jessica: Dis Is Your Night And Your Watching Us.
Me: Im Fine.
Jessica: et Your Hair Down, You Look Sexi And Yor Not Showing It Of.
Me: Im Having Fun Here.
She Pulled Me From My Lil Cornner I Was Hiding. After A While I Started Having some Fun And I started Dancing And Allowed Some Guys To Dance Wit Me. The Ladies Wer In Shock. I Started Dancing On My Own And Den I Felt Someone Hold on To My Waist. I Looked Over At Chelsea Who Was Having Her On Fun. She Started Smiling But She Wasn't Looking At Me.
I Was Puzzled And I Turned Round And I Couldn't Believe It Him. He Was about To Say Something But Den My Phone Started Vibrating And It Was Leon, I Picked It Up And Waked Away.
I Was In The Corner Just Finished Talking To Leon, I Put The Phone In My Back Pocket, Trey Came Up To Me And Stood In Front Ov Me And Just Smiled At Me.
Me: Srry About Cutting You Off.
Trey: Its All Bbz.
He Got Closer And Rapped His Hand Round My Waist.
Trey: You Look Sexii.
Me: Plz Trey.
Trey: You Keep Begging Me But Your Not Pushing Me Away.
I Pushed Him Out The Way And Walked Off Till He Pulled Me Back And Pushed Me Against The Wall.
Trey: You See Wen You Look Lyk Dis, I Cnt Let You Out My Sight. I've Been Thinking Us Being Friend. Well We Cnt. Naeveh I
3 Comments 136 weeks
I was in da kitchen and Eden came in2 da kitche and just hugged me out ov no wer, she must wont something.
Me: Wats dat 4 luv?
Eden:Just happy wer back wit daddy.
Me: So am i bbz. Go get ready 4 school.
She nodded her head and ran of, I finshed packing her pack lunch and her bag. We got in da car and drove of. I was early so we staid in da car and liten to music and she talked.
Eden: Mum Tracy her can go out.
She got out and I sat in hopping he wont see me. The car door opened and Trey sat beside me. It was quiet 4 a while.
Trey: So how you been?
Me: Its going well if ur on about me an Leon.
Trey: Not at all aint trying to upset you.
Trey: Miss you.
Me: hmm... Trey it wont work out me and Leon are back together.
Trey: It dnt have to we can be friends, you dnt answer my calls, e-mails, text noting. I just wonna be in your lyf.
I smile and looked out da window.
Me: Ok friend.
I put my hand out 4 a handshake but he kissed it instead making me blush.
Trey: See you around yh.
He got out da car and I drove off, I gt to work and everyone was watching me. Eve came up to me.
Eve: Hi bbz Ms J wonts you in her office.
I asked why but she just smiled and surged her shoulder. I walked into da office and she was sitting at her desk.
Me: Morning ms Jay.
Ms Jay: You know its aunty Jay.
Me: Srry so wats happening.
Aunt: Jay: Bbz you know I said I was going back to Congo.
Aunt Jay: Well im going in 2 weeks and staying der but I will be come back and to London just for holidays.
Me: I'm sad you leaving. Your lyk a mother and grandmother to me a Eden.
Aunty Jay: Den you shud call me mum.
I smiled and hugged me tight.
Mum: Well lets stop dis b4 I start to cry, because im going back to Me:Congo im leaving my salons to you all ov dem. It can help you and me.
Me: Are you sur you wont me to take care of dem.
Mum: I've neva been so sure, I love you and Tracy and wont betta 4 da both ov u. It wll even be betta if get rid of da useless boyfriend ov urz.
I rolled my eyes and smile we started talking 4 a while den we came out and der was music playing, food and drinks.
To da cud not get any betta.
I was in da studio getting work done and I cudn't tink. I started writing a song.
Yeah, check me out girl, im tired of the creepin,
tired of the hidin, tired of the sneakin
you lookin over your shoulder everytime that we meetin,
saying I can only call your phone on the weekends
its not fair,im just tryin to expand,
take you out and buy you all of the best brand
I never been the type of dude to knot the next man,
you dont need a optics to see that im the best man
no flower on the floor, no bright no broom,
all I see is pain inside your room
textin my phone sayin he treatin you rough,
if he not givin one minute then he beatin you up, and it sucks...
cus im just tryna hide it with the hugs,
but you cant even see it,cus you blinded by the love
we past all that girl, im missing your lips,
so ima write you this letter now listen to this (lets go)
Realizing you aint feelin him it all the day,
and its really nothing more to say
and you sayin the feelin is all gone away,
girl im only one call away
you gotta let him go(go), go(go) ,go(go) ,go(go)... you gotta let him go(go), go(go), go(go), go(go)
Yeah... I say... its like...uhh
Baby, ever since I got your digits,
all I hear from you is you sayin you at your limits
baby it will so much better if I did it,
and me and you can make the world jealous if you with it
lets be real, im who you tryna be next to,
only time you smile with him, is if I text you
its obvious you cant see what he's bringin you,
and rappin aint gettin the point of cross ima sing to you
Realizing you aint feelin him it all the day,
and its really nothing more to say
and you sayin the feelin
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